Have Money will Travel..

well I don't have money (okay, that much money) but I was given the chance, so Go na di ba! Its almost 12 and I know I should be sleeping and all na but I can't yet. I'm so excited.

I'm off to see these wonderful places in a few days. Yay! Goodbye Manila for now, hello fresh air, longganisa, cobbled stone streets and Unesco heritage site. Pepe would be proud!

I shall kiss the Metro goodbye for a while muna. Chus!

*Happy New Year in advance. Keep those ten fingers safe! :)

Maligayang Pasko!

Christmas is still the best occasion in this life. It is perhaps because people are more forgiving, tolerant, generous, nicer, happier and everything that is actually good. Although, it's also the time when some people take advantage of the holiday season, it is best not to wallow on it, we're supposed to be merry after all.

I never wrote down my christmas wishlist (except the one I had with the Bermillo family) publicly this year because I was a bit lazy to do so, plus I don't want to bother other people reading about my nearly impossible wishes and wants and worry about how in the heck they're gonna get it for me (not that they'd really get it for me though, but just in case y'know).

After all, if I look back at this year, I can proudly say that 2008 has been a very good year for me cos I got what I wanted and wished for. Well, mostly. Some a little more than I should be actually getting and hoped for.

If anybody's interested in finding out what came true and what didn't, just read it here.

So I'm not sure when I'm gonna write soon, this being a holiday season. I hope soon cos I have an awful lot to write.

Eat and drink and be Merry. Happy Christmas!

of farewells and deathly silence

Admittedly, I am not good with goodbyes and faretheewells. Hey, it may not really show most of the time but my alter ego succumbs into it nonetheless. But I have to say, that today's goodbyes and farewells didn't bother me much. Why? I'm not exactly sure either. Maybe because I don't feel alone anymore, maybe because I have other friends and almost family to hang onto each time someone leaves or maybe because I know that it wouldn't be a permanent goodbye. There's always the thought that they'll come back, no matter how long it may take.

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Whenever my grandmother and I have fights or if I did something she didn't like, she'd give me the silent treatment. She's not the type to hit a kid, she might give me some awfully long sermons and that's that but she'd still ignore me for some time. And it kills me. That was about the same time when I learn how to deal with being alone, burying my nose under tons of books and writing wrong-grammared entries on my dog-eared journals. See, I can be very sociable and friendly and all but I highly regard my solitary moments too, it doesn't last that long though bummer.

That's why I dont like these long silent seconds, minutes, hours. I'd rather you scream and shout at me than endure those long deathly silence. Or I can always just walk away. But I suck at it. So either way...

Thought for the Day

The worst thing about being lied to is knowing you weren't worth the truth.

Got this from Facebook's Bumper Sticker. Wala lang. True, in a way. Haaay.

Ayown.

Ganun pala ang feeling ng mamiss mo ang isang tao kahit na ilang araw lang naman nung huli kayong magkita. Kamoteng kesong madrama. Namiss kita! :)

3000 mg a day

today marks my 8th Valtrex-free day. 42 tablets gone. stuffed. money thrown.

the burning sensation's over too. right now i'm on the super-itchiness stage of it. the peeling wounds and red marks.

would you believe that this is the same med that HIV positives take on their first diagnosis? Me neither. I can't.




















The sentimental that I am cannot let go of these garbages, so I decided to just take a couple photos and put 'em up here for me to remember forever. Well, there's the scar though to remind me every freaking day. Hohum.

Good Job Lola!

Kanina lang, kinamusta ko ang lola ko through text. Saka ko lang nabalitaan na naoperahan pala sya sa tyan netong Oktubre lang. Cyst daw. Dating mga estudyante daw nya mga nurses na nag-alaga sa kanya at pati na rin yung anesthesiologist. Nagpaumanhin ako sa tagal ng di ko pagpaparamdam sa kanya at pagkekwento na rin ng mga worth ikwento na pangyayari sa buhay ko lately, tulad na lang ng pagkakaroon ng bwakanang shingles.

Nagpaalam na rin ako na dun ako uuwi at magpapasko sa kanya. Ang sagot ba naman sa akin ay “Okay. May boyfriend ka na ba?” Huwat a hirit. Pero alam ko na rin kasunod nun. At nagpakabait ako sa pamamagitan ng pagsagot na lang ng “Opo”. Nakailang ganitong usapan na ba kami ng lola ko? Wala pa kong boypren e saganang-sagana na ko sa mga paalala. Anyhoo, alam ko namang matanda sya at karapatan nyang payuhan at paalalahanan ako kaya okay lang naman, naiintindihan ko. Pero siguro, kahit naman hindi nya sabihin yun, bata pa lang ako napagdesisyunan ko na na hindi ko gagawin o uulitin ang ginawa ng mga magulang ko. We don’t repeat what our parents have done wrong. That is if we are educated and smart enough not to commit the same mistake.

Fine. Hindi ko pa rin mapapangako siguro unless trenta anyos na ko at nasa puntong ako na ang pinagtutulakan ngayon ng mga kamag-anak ko na mag-asawa na. Pero basta. Kaya nga may utak ang tao para gamitin mag-isip e. Maraming pagkakamaling nagagawa dahil puso lang ang pinapairal. Base lang naman sa experience ng mga tao sa paligid, naririnig at nakikita.
Balik tayo kay Lola. E di sumagot na ‘ko ng mga sagot na gusto nyang marinig (kailangan yun para ma-assure sya na hindi ako nalalango sa pag-ibig mwahaha), aba, panalo ang reply nya.

“May, palaging magdasal kay Mama Mary. Dapat may pinag-aralan din, masipag at responsible at may trabajo, siguraduhin mong mabait at walang sabit.”

Anak ng tipaklong! Mula sa pagdadasal kay Mama Mary ( OO, relihiyosa ang lola ko katulad ng karamihang matatanda sa Pilipinas at di lang yan HARDCORE religious pa kamo!)ang galing sumegway ni Lola. Waaah. Hindi pa naman ako mag-aasawa por dios y por santo, makapagbigay ng advice akala mo ay mag-aasawa na ko.

Hindi naman sa pinagtatawanan at pinagwawalang-bahala ko ang mga payo at paalala ng lola ko sakin, normal lang naman yun dahil sya ang nagpalaki sakin at sa simpleng dahilan na mahal nya ko. Tinatandaan ko naman yung mga yun pramis. Pero minsan kasi exaggerated na rin. Mukha siguro kasi atang magkakamali ako sa pagpili ng lalaki sa buhay (or in the near future) yun tipong kerida lang pala ako, elementary graduate lang, tamad, iresponsable at palamunin. Hahaha. Huwag naman sana. In the first place hindi naman ako maiinlab sa isang taong hindi ko makakausap. Intellectual equal lang ang hanap ko, solb na ko dun.

As for the other standards, well, may point nga sya with the rest ng mga sinabi nya. Yikes.