Have Money will Travel..

well I don't have money (okay, that much money) but I was given the chance, so Go na di ba! Its almost 12 and I know I should be sleeping and all na but I can't yet. I'm so excited.

I'm off to see these wonderful places in a few days. Yay! Goodbye Manila for now, hello fresh air, longganisa, cobbled stone streets and Unesco heritage site. Pepe would be proud!

I shall kiss the Metro goodbye for a while muna. Chus!

*Happy New Year in advance. Keep those ten fingers safe! :)

Maligayang Pasko!

Christmas is still the best occasion in this life. It is perhaps because people are more forgiving, tolerant, generous, nicer, happier and everything that is actually good. Although, it's also the time when some people take advantage of the holiday season, it is best not to wallow on it, we're supposed to be merry after all.

I never wrote down my christmas wishlist (except the one I had with the Bermillo family) publicly this year because I was a bit lazy to do so, plus I don't want to bother other people reading about my nearly impossible wishes and wants and worry about how in the heck they're gonna get it for me (not that they'd really get it for me though, but just in case y'know).

After all, if I look back at this year, I can proudly say that 2008 has been a very good year for me cos I got what I wanted and wished for. Well, mostly. Some a little more than I should be actually getting and hoped for.

If anybody's interested in finding out what came true and what didn't, just read it here.

So I'm not sure when I'm gonna write soon, this being a holiday season. I hope soon cos I have an awful lot to write.

Eat and drink and be Merry. Happy Christmas!

of farewells and deathly silence

Admittedly, I am not good with goodbyes and faretheewells. Hey, it may not really show most of the time but my alter ego succumbs into it nonetheless. But I have to say, that today's goodbyes and farewells didn't bother me much. Why? I'm not exactly sure either. Maybe because I don't feel alone anymore, maybe because I have other friends and almost family to hang onto each time someone leaves or maybe because I know that it wouldn't be a permanent goodbye. There's always the thought that they'll come back, no matter how long it may take.

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Whenever my grandmother and I have fights or if I did something she didn't like, she'd give me the silent treatment. She's not the type to hit a kid, she might give me some awfully long sermons and that's that but she'd still ignore me for some time. And it kills me. That was about the same time when I learn how to deal with being alone, burying my nose under tons of books and writing wrong-grammared entries on my dog-eared journals. See, I can be very sociable and friendly and all but I highly regard my solitary moments too, it doesn't last that long though bummer.

That's why I dont like these long silent seconds, minutes, hours. I'd rather you scream and shout at me than endure those long deathly silence. Or I can always just walk away. But I suck at it. So either way...

Thought for the Day

The worst thing about being lied to is knowing you weren't worth the truth.

Got this from Facebook's Bumper Sticker. Wala lang. True, in a way. Haaay.

Ayown.

Ganun pala ang feeling ng mamiss mo ang isang tao kahit na ilang araw lang naman nung huli kayong magkita. Kamoteng kesong madrama. Namiss kita! :)

3000 mg a day

today marks my 8th Valtrex-free day. 42 tablets gone. stuffed. money thrown.

the burning sensation's over too. right now i'm on the super-itchiness stage of it. the peeling wounds and red marks.

would you believe that this is the same med that HIV positives take on their first diagnosis? Me neither. I can't.




















The sentimental that I am cannot let go of these garbages, so I decided to just take a couple photos and put 'em up here for me to remember forever. Well, there's the scar though to remind me every freaking day. Hohum.

Good Job Lola!

Kanina lang, kinamusta ko ang lola ko through text. Saka ko lang nabalitaan na naoperahan pala sya sa tyan netong Oktubre lang. Cyst daw. Dating mga estudyante daw nya mga nurses na nag-alaga sa kanya at pati na rin yung anesthesiologist. Nagpaumanhin ako sa tagal ng di ko pagpaparamdam sa kanya at pagkekwento na rin ng mga worth ikwento na pangyayari sa buhay ko lately, tulad na lang ng pagkakaroon ng bwakanang shingles.

Nagpaalam na rin ako na dun ako uuwi at magpapasko sa kanya. Ang sagot ba naman sa akin ay “Okay. May boyfriend ka na ba?” Huwat a hirit. Pero alam ko na rin kasunod nun. At nagpakabait ako sa pamamagitan ng pagsagot na lang ng “Opo”. Nakailang ganitong usapan na ba kami ng lola ko? Wala pa kong boypren e saganang-sagana na ko sa mga paalala. Anyhoo, alam ko namang matanda sya at karapatan nyang payuhan at paalalahanan ako kaya okay lang naman, naiintindihan ko. Pero siguro, kahit naman hindi nya sabihin yun, bata pa lang ako napagdesisyunan ko na na hindi ko gagawin o uulitin ang ginawa ng mga magulang ko. We don’t repeat what our parents have done wrong. That is if we are educated and smart enough not to commit the same mistake.

Fine. Hindi ko pa rin mapapangako siguro unless trenta anyos na ko at nasa puntong ako na ang pinagtutulakan ngayon ng mga kamag-anak ko na mag-asawa na. Pero basta. Kaya nga may utak ang tao para gamitin mag-isip e. Maraming pagkakamaling nagagawa dahil puso lang ang pinapairal. Base lang naman sa experience ng mga tao sa paligid, naririnig at nakikita.
Balik tayo kay Lola. E di sumagot na ‘ko ng mga sagot na gusto nyang marinig (kailangan yun para ma-assure sya na hindi ako nalalango sa pag-ibig mwahaha), aba, panalo ang reply nya.

“May, palaging magdasal kay Mama Mary. Dapat may pinag-aralan din, masipag at responsible at may trabajo, siguraduhin mong mabait at walang sabit.”

Anak ng tipaklong! Mula sa pagdadasal kay Mama Mary ( OO, relihiyosa ang lola ko katulad ng karamihang matatanda sa Pilipinas at di lang yan HARDCORE religious pa kamo!)ang galing sumegway ni Lola. Waaah. Hindi pa naman ako mag-aasawa por dios y por santo, makapagbigay ng advice akala mo ay mag-aasawa na ko.

Hindi naman sa pinagtatawanan at pinagwawalang-bahala ko ang mga payo at paalala ng lola ko sakin, normal lang naman yun dahil sya ang nagpalaki sakin at sa simpleng dahilan na mahal nya ko. Tinatandaan ko naman yung mga yun pramis. Pero minsan kasi exaggerated na rin. Mukha siguro kasi atang magkakamali ako sa pagpili ng lalaki sa buhay (or in the near future) yun tipong kerida lang pala ako, elementary graduate lang, tamad, iresponsable at palamunin. Hahaha. Huwag naman sana. In the first place hindi naman ako maiinlab sa isang taong hindi ko makakausap. Intellectual equal lang ang hanap ko, solb na ko dun.

As for the other standards, well, may point nga sya with the rest ng mga sinabi nya. Yikes.

I'm Burning...

though not literally. This is my second day away from the office, although I am still working from time to time. Why? Cos I got the shingles. Herpes Zoster if you wanna be more specific. Although I still cringe at the very name of my ailment, once you get to learn more about it, there's nothing really worth cringing about it except the pain of course. But that's another story.

Shingles, according to Wikipedia, is a viral disease characterized by a painful skin rash with blisters in a limited area on one side of the body, often in a stripe. The initial infection with varicella zoster virus (VZV) causes the acute (short-lived) illness chickenpox, and generally occurs in children and young people. Once an episode of chickenpox has resolved, the virus is not eliminated from the body but can go on to cause shingles—an illness with very different symptoms—often many years after the initial infection.

Just to be clear: The herpes virus that causes shingles and chickenpox is not the same as the herpes virus that causes genital herpes (which can be sexually transmitted) and herpes mouth sores. Shingles is medically termed Herpes zoster.

Oh dear.

How I got this is beyond my comprehension. The doc says i probably got it from someone who has it already and it didn't help at all that I had a weak immune system at the time of contact. So whoever gave this to me, well, I got it.

Having shingles is NO FUN AT ALL. The blisters are icky to look at, it's itchy, painful. the throbbing kind. It's like each blister's screaming and mocking at me and I can feel all of them, all at the same time. I'm sure I sound shit and nuts by saying this but it is what I feel. And it also doesn't help that i can't go out much, mingle with people especially friends and the biggest disappointment of them all is that I can't go mountain climbing na hinintay ko lang naman at pinaghandaan ng isang taon. Oh well. I want to try to believe to whoever said that "If God closes a door, He's probably opening a window in return". Of what view that window is gonna offer me, I'm still about to find out.

Some observations: this sickness is not cheap. If you want to get better fast, you'll gonna need a lot of moolah. Believe me. It is still kinda rare. and there are still some unanswered questions with regards on how the virus becomes dormant all these years and then just breakout all of a sudden. And when the book says that you'll be experiencing severe pain and burning, believe that it is indeed SEVERE PAIN AND BURNING.

Sometimes I'd like to believe that due to the humongous amount of meds that I've already taken, my brain is failing me already and I think I'm having lapses from time to time. i wish and hope to get better soon. Please.... :(

ARRRRRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHH.

Ngayon lang uli ako nainis ng ganito. Nakakabwiset talaga. As in. Naghihintay ka kasi buong akala mo may sasagot sayo yun pala naghihintay ka sa wala dahil sa bwiset na koneksyon. Grrrrrrrr. Tapos sasabayan pa ng pagloloko ng telepono mo. At mga taong ewan..

Pakshet gusto ko nang umuwi at matulog ng dalawang araw.

Kiddo's 22

Happy Birthday Stevie-O! That you may sleep peacefully and deeply now is all I ever want for you. :p

First

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Tsamba yung pic na to. Lookit what my finger's tryin to tell.. Ö Anyhoo, Happy 31 days. Yikeee.

Lola would be mad..

Pumatol na naman ako sa mga ganito after 28 years haha. Howell.. parang may gusto lang ipahiwatig yung resulta..

There Are 1 Gaps in Your Knowledge

Where you have gaps in your knowledge: Religion Where you don't have gaps in your knowledge: Philosophy Economics Literature History Science Art

Do You Have Gaps in Your Knowledge?

Goodbyes and Epitaphs

Today is the last day of one of my officemates, one of the first few friends I made here in my new work. The funny thing though, we used to be classmates in one of my PE back in college days. Philippine Games. At susme, 4th year na ata ko nun at 1st year lang sya. And I never forget faces, kaya when I saw him natuwa naman ako hehe.

on his last day in the office, he sent me this via YM:

josecarlodepano: marye, thanks for everything ha. I'll certainly miss you and your sweet smiles. :)

See you in UP Sir Carlo haha!

Anyway, nobody died. But the title's quite apt since today is Halloween and tomorrow's All Souls Day naman. So, BOO yah all. Happy trick or treating! Me? I'm gonna run later. My first Night Fun Run. Hope to enjoy it even though my upper body part aches. Ow, ow.

Who's the Right One Anyway?

Uhmm..the Twilight of their generation hehe. I think its kinda good, aside from the fact that the kid having that "almost white blond" hair which made him even cuter haha. Plus, this time it's the girl who does the action, i mean vampiric actions. Bella Swan who? :p

On Why It Hurts..

..because I can't look you in the eye without feeling guilty. I can't even talk you cos it already equates to betrayal.

Of prayers..

I'm not a religious person, that I'm sure of. 10 or 11 years ago, I could've passed as one what with growing up with a hardcore strict Catholic grandmother. And then I went to UP. And all else sailed out of the window..except my personal virtues, of course they're intact. I never believed that you have to go to the church to ask for forgiveness, to thank the higher deity. We can all do that while we are walking, or eating, or just sitting. It doesn't have to be an obligation to seek Church's approval for everything because if that is the case then everyone would've gone nuts and this planet would be in chaos.

It is enough to know and acknowledge that there is Someone out there, far more intellectual, understanding, forgiving, kind, generous and forgiving. It will blow my mind just to think what or who could possibly be the reason for everything. I know my brain capacity limit. We all are gifted to think for ourselves and it is up to us if we shall accept truth over lies, beauty over ugliness, peace over war, love over hatred.

I know I'm digressing and this isn't a normal entry for me for I try to never start my sentences with "I" but since this day isn't like any other day, I shall let it pass.

All my love and prayer to Tita Babeth..One of the best mothers I've ever met. Get well soon tita..

Stay strong Kimimay..

When was the last time you had fun?

Me? Just this last weekend. Friends + Travels = FUN!
Friends + JC + Travels + Food + Theme Parks = Aba, super kaduper FUN na!

Addicting swing

Wackiness

Kanya-kanyang mundo lang

Who's afraid of getting wet? Not me.

Take us away oh Anchor's Away!

Nick and Nora's Infinite Playlist

I wanna, wanna, wanna, watch!!! My favoritest dork in the world is back. :) Pero bago ang lahat, i need to read the book first. Ha!

Blog Action Day 2008

Today is Blog Action day.

Uhmm..wala akong makwento as of now. Pero gusto ko talagang mag-participate dito kasi para saan pa't nagka-blog nga di ba. Anyway, my only say in this is that, we can overcome this...someday. Kung kelan man yung someday na yun aba, yun lang ang problema. I believe that Jose Rizal wasn't exaggerating when he put his hopes and faith on the future generation. It is in our hands to overcome poverty. It is such a delicate issue (at least to those who are experiencing it) and I for one has seen and felt what it was like to live in total poverty. Pero gusto ko lang sabihin that I am way better off than most other people out there. What I experienced, even if in my opinion was the worst days of my life, it is NOTHING compared to what millions of people are going through.

Kaya mga bata, ubusin ang pagkain sa inyong plato, do not buy excessively, use only what you need, donate at least once in your lifetime, do not give alms to street children (instead give them foods) and thank the Lord above that you have roof over your head and food to put in your mouth.

Taralets Run!

Perstaym ko sumali sa running event. Well, it was a personal goal kaya i made it come true. Leche parang "i'll make your dream come true" event lang. But anyway, it was fun dahil unang-una sino ba mag-aakala na tatakbo ko sa event na ito with my erm..boyps haha. Not me. Surprise. Nwey, I was also with the human R & K na naiwan somewhere sa likod dahil nagphoto-ops pa nyaha. Til our next run!

Nagpapichur sa Kenyan runner na itow (dyaske di man lang natin natanong pangalan nya!): Me, JC, Jam and Jed

The Boys : Proud Finishers

Pawisang mga bata. R, K and M.

And so, we shall run together. Nyahaha.

Maliksi, Masigla!

A Bedtime Story 6

..The guards didn't appear to hear lisa shouting, she started to become more nervous and wanted to wake up, she kept telling herself to wake from the dream but she couldnt. In frustration and an attempt to get the guards notice she started to bang on a parked truck. She didnt understand how she could be aware of herself being in a dream state but unable to control or wake from it. The guards came over and asked if she was going to make a fuss like earlier in the mall. although they didnt say it, she knew they were aware of her earlier flying..

* I think this would be the penultimate one. Sigh.

Breakaway

Kailangan ko na namang maglinis ng aking inbox at umaapaw na ang mga mensahe, naghahanap na naman kuno ng space whatever. Dito ko muna itatapon ang mga mensahe na hindi ko kayang i-let go. ching!

*Marye!!! *hugs* congratulations talaga!kakatuwa nmn..i was really praying for u that day =) im sooooo happy for u. ~ work related response from hunnybun

*May the wind beckon to you its healing touch, brush your face tonight, and blow away that which ails you.. Goodnyt and sweet dreams, tbud. :)

*with all that ubuntu adapting.hehe goodnyt!welcome back, vampire!

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By the way, I looooooove my friends! Honestly and immensely. I must have done something good to deserve them. Hmm... :)

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Pero may isang end-of-friendship issue (lokohan lang namin) na umangat ngayon lang. Good Job haha. I guess matanda na ko at hindi na kasing-sensitibo (di tulad ng dati) enough para intindihin ang mga bagay-bagay. Walang kaso sakin yun pero di ko alam bakit ako naiyak. Lecheng background song lang kasi wahaha. Di bale, mahal na mahal pa rin kita. Shet. Wisdom do come as we age. and forgiveness too. Amen. ;)

Be Happy!

And It starts here.. :)

A Dose of Mela

Dahil kahit hindi tayo nagkikita at hindi mo ko nababatukan ng personal sa mga pinaggagagawa ko lately (and vice versa), masaya ko at nagpapasalamat na ikaw pa rin ang voice of reason ko. Tagapagpaliwanag sa mga bagay-bagay na hindi ko maintindihan (at ayaw intindihin), matyagang nag-papaintindi sakin na wala nang fairy tales ngayon (kung meron man hindi na panghabambuhay besides, stepmothers na ang nagwawagi nowadays aysus!) at sa pagpapaalala sakin na: "actions speak louder than voice"

PANALO. Pambihira ka! Natawa ko. Okay na sana yung banat eh. :) But anyway, salamat sa pagbubukas ng isip ko.

Here goes nothing...or maybe everything.

sweet C o' mine*

Pardon me, but all these stuff are new to me. So new that I'm sure I may have thrown inappropriate/kajologan/kabobohan words for the simple reason that I don't exactly know what to say or do. My brain doesn't process these things in quite the natural way or rather the normal way. kumbaga sa microsoft e lotus pa lang ata ako huhu. But... Lemme write these things that I can never properly utter when I'm wide awake and sane.

~I have never been given something by someone, let alone a boy, who has to go through more than an arm's length of hassle just to get it. I only have vague idea, mind you, and it's not exactly an arduous task but the fact still remains the same that that someone actually took the pains to get me something that he thinks would make me happy. I'm pretty amazed, the effort alone kills me. Although it definitely wasn't my first reaction but that's another story.

What did I feel after my brain settled enough for me to think straight? Weird but I felt special at that moment and i don't mean the special retarded that I already am. Y'know what I mean. Moving on...

~For the longest time, I lived alone. I did a lot of things on my own, on my own pace and on my own time. I've lots of friends and though I'm not afraid to tell them that I fear of being alone and forgotten, I value and regard my independence a lot too. There are others out there I suppose, who find joy in their solitary minutes and they don't take it as anti-socialism or whatever. It's natural. it's legitimate. It is not weird.

Which brings me to what I wanna say.. for saying the things I also wanted to say but never having the nerve to say it out loud: "we've had our lives before any of this, so just continue what you've been doing. The world does not revolve around us.." something to that effect. I couldn't agree more. So, thanks. :)

That's it for now. I guess..


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*Well he's not mine though, duh. just a parody for that song.

Just Because...

It's funny how some of us gets no love at all when we need it the most, and when we are given, it gets so overwhelming we can't possibly think what to do with it all.

Personally, I don't know what to make out of it. Where is the logic and equality there when people in dire need of someone to love, care, nurture or simply understand them are nowhere to be found. It is the loneliest feeling, I swear, to find nothing when you're reaching out to everyone. A lot of people may break down not because they're too weak to fight it but because, sometimes, it's physically, emotionally and mentally wearying. Life can be actually sucked out at you.

Well, i don't know about breaking down or being "unloved" at all. Haha. Even if my life for the most part got f*cked up, I never felt the need to end it all. C'mon. It may sound too cliche or laspag, but life is beautiful. You just gotta find stuffs to make it one if you still can't see it. Either you're too stoned, wasted, blind, bleak or in denial to actually see it all.

Anyhoo, the reason behind all this sudden posting (and no connection at all on the bleakness stuff) is a good friend of mine who became too emotional and sentimental on me . I'll give the guy a break because, yeah, he's got a point. A point, nevertheless, that i will never, ever try to succumb. Don't you worry, we'll always be tbuds. I'll find time :)

A Bedtime Story 5

..She looked down the stairs and saw a group of people. Although she was experiencing fright she shouted out to them, are you also dreaming!? Without them even saying anything she knew she would not get an answer, she shut her eyes again and when she opened them she was in an underground car park, she tried to shout out to the security staff..

*just last night but i was already fast asleep i didnt even get to read my bedtime story.

A Bedtime Story 4

..Realising she was in a dream state, Lisa tried to jump high, higher than would ever be possible in waking life.. As she jumped, she began to reach 15, 20, 25 feet high before an arm grabbed out at her, she was shocked and scared, she swiped her arm through the hand of the person grabbing her and soared high above the ground. She shut her eyes only for a moment and found herself on a dark staircase..

A Bedtime Story 3

medyo natagalan bago nasundan ;)

..Lisa jumped out of the way of the beam but as she held her nose for a sneeze she was confused that she could still breath through her nose. At this point she realised she had been transported into a dream state. A man in in a black robe approached her and said he would be her guide. She looked around at the walls counfused by their strange colors and their moving in and out..

Grr..

Nakakainis lang na nag-aadjust ka sa lahat ng pagbabago sa buhay mo, sinusubukan mong sabayan ang ikot ng mundo ng ibang tao para lang minsan mahilo at maiwan.

A Bedtime Story 1

somebody actually wrote it out of nowhere. I'm not sure if it's just for me or what. Nevertheless.. Parang poof! It's Koko Crunch haha. :)

...There was a girl called Lisa who lived underwater but one day she traveled to the surface where she ran into a dancing purple mole, she was intrigued and when the mole saw her and dug a hole to run away she followed him...

More tomoro :D

Panalo lang di ba? Good Job! But I'm actually imagining what a purple mole looks like to no avail.

A Bedtime Story 2

..cont.

...Lisa landed with a hard bump and opened her dazed eyes, she looked around and saw a shadow moving against a wall, she looked around to see where the dim light was coming from that lit the tunnel but couldn't see the source, as she got up she saw the mole peek around the corner and fire some kind of beam at her..

to be continued..

Yikes, bitin!

...

And someday, when I'm sober enough with all these drunkenness, i shall remember everything and look back on it with delirious happiness.. But for now, not yet..

Remember This Day

As what Dumbledore said.

Marielaaaaaaaaaaaa.

Gesundheit

Ang sarap pala ng pakiramdam ng hindi nag-iisip at nagdedesisyon para sa sarili mo. Kung saan kakain, san liliko, san pupunta, anong oras aalis, anong kakainin, san bababa. Small stuff. But not too small to be ignored. Dapat lahat pala ng tao makaranas ng ganito. Kahit for once lang. Liberating lang yung feeling.


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Well, pangatlong araw ko nang may sakit 'to (at syempre pumapasok pa rin ako even if my body soldiers are screaming NOOOOO!), and I hope to recover soon. I HATE BEING SICK. Andami kong kapalpakang nagagawa. Yung clumsiness ko tumitriple pa lalo. At marami akong nakakalimutan. At hindi yun maganda.

Namiss ko nang magsulat at mag-vent ng kung anu-anong angas, inis, kwento at kung anu-ano pa kaya bumalik ako sa kaisa-isang notebook ko sa web. Napupuno na rin ng doodles ang kwaderno ko sa kwarto. Pero lately ay inaatake na talaga ko ng katamaran. Andami-dami kong gustong isulat pero wala kong lakas para kumuha ng bolpen at magsulat. Dagdag pa siguro kung yung inspirasyon mo e napakahirap ispelengin.

Ahchooooo.

Do I smell regret?

It's been a long, long time. Haven't heard anything from him for quite a while that it made me think he got her sperminated already but then again, life has its quirky ways. I'm happy that he's happy and at peace right now, because after everything that his heart have been through, he actually and truly deserves it this time..

Great Time to be a Kid

Being polluted and literally trashed by humans, the Earth has been void for 700 years now, and Wall-E (Waste Allocation Load Lifter Earth-Class) is the last operational unit of his kind to clean up all the mess that humans left behind, a task not too big even for a small robot like him. Okay, he is a robot. And a very lonely robot for that. But he isn't like any other robot for Wall-E is one curious robot. He collect things he finds interesting enough, has a cockroach for a friend (yes, even if a million A-bomb hit the earth they'd still live. goshdarn roaches!) and he loves watching the 1969 musical film videotape of Hello Dolly! It teaches him emotion, especially the act of holding hands, which he equates as an act of love.

Along came Eve (Extra-Terrestrial Vegetative Evaluator) or Evaaa as what Wall-E says, a feminine probe-like robot. Of course Wall-E fell in love at her, at first sight pa! And there goes their funny, often sweet robotic love affair or whatever you may call it. And it doesn't help that Wall-e is waaaay too much cute for words. Ü One thing i firmly believe in this film though is that everyone dreams of holding another person's hand, has dreams of becoming lonely no more, and wall-e is not an exception, i guess.

Wall-E, like every other Pixar movies, aren't just films that entertain kids and kids-at-heart as well because more than entertaining I believe each Pixar films that ever came out are here to give us far more important lessons in life. Whether to love your toys, not being afraid of the dark, not bugging the bugs, following your dreams, obeying your parents, being a humble bigshot car, etc..

Director Andrew Stanton summarized everything in here:

WALL-E is the only one still truly living. And what is the ultimate purpose of living? To love. And WALL-E falls head over heels with a robot named EVE. Now, WALL-E's feelings aren't reciprocated because, well, she has no feelings. She's a robot, cold and clinical. WALL-E is the one who has evolved over time and garnered feelings. So in the end, it's gonna be WALL-E's pursuit to win EVE's heart, and his unique appreciation of life to become mankind's last hope to rediscover its roots. In short, it's going to take a robot's love to help make the world go round.

Which led me into remembering the first CGI animated comedy feature film from Pixar Animation Studios. i LOVE Toy Story for everything that it was. Aside kay Woody, ang paborito kong characters ay sina Mr. Potato at Rex. haha.

Some excerpts from the movie:

Buzz: Are you still worried?

Woody: About Andy? Nah. It'll be fun while it lasts.

Buzz: I'm proud of you, cowboy.

Woody: Besides, when it's all over, I'll have my old pal Buzz Lightyear to keep me company, for infinity and beyond.

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[The toys are gathered around an Etcha Sketch board with a doodle of Woody on it.]

Hamm: All right. Let's review this one more time. At precisely 8:32-ish, Exhibit 'A,' Woody, was kidnapped. Exhibit 'B'. A composite sketch of the kidnapper.

Bo: He didn't have a beard like that.

Hamm: Fine. Etch, give him a shave.

Slinky: The kidnapper was bigger than that.

Hamm: Oh, picky, picky, picky...

Mr. Potato: Let's just go straight to Exhibit 'F': The kidnapper's vehicle. Now, the vehicle fled the scene in this direction—

Hamm: Are your eyes in backwards? It went the other way.

Mr. Potato: Hey, put a cork in it, pal.

[Rex arrives, demolishing the "crime scene".]

Rex: How do you spell 'FBI'?

Mr. Potato: MY CRIME SCENE!

Hamm: Oh, why don't you watch where you're going, Godspilla?!

Rex: I didn't know there was a crime scene!

Dahil wala nang matinong trailer para sa Toy Story sa youtube (go straight ahead to pixar.com na lang), Toy Story 2 trailer na lang ang nilagay ko dito. And as what Buzz Lightyear loves to say, To Infinity and Beyond!

The problem with bargaining..

You see, nagawa ko na 'to dati eh. Lord-let-me-graduate-and-i-swear-to-you-i-can-live-with-the-fact-of-being-single-forever (well, i HOPE not really forever..) and i got what i want. i'd like to believe that i graduated because of it. well, recently e nakipag-bargain na naman ako kay Lord (bakit ba kasiiii??) pero this time, work- related stuff naman. Let's say that I got the job that i wanted which means i finally found a way to get myself outta my current loser job.

Guess what kung ano na naman ang pinagpalit ko?

Freak.

I swear napapraning na ko.

Pero sabagay, naiinis na rin ako. Nangangawit na rin ako kakahintay sa taong hindi ka naman makita-kita.

Touche for life.

Sweet Lord!

Dear God,

In days to come, please grant me maximum self-control that i shall not do moronic things and say stupid stuffs that I would probably regret until I'm well past 50. I need it badly. For my own good, for the good of my own corazon.

And oh, while you're at it please ibalato Mo na rin po sakin ang trabahong iyon. Pretty, pretty puhlease.

Thank You!

Happily Yours,
Marye

~~~


Came upon this from here. I'm not a big fan of rainy days but, aren't they sweet? Susmio.

Houston, we have a problem.

Frankly, she was peacefully minding her own business, leading a melancholic yet a good kind of life, then you have to happen..

leave her alone.

Hey Jay!

Para sa isang makabagong pagpapakita ng nakakainis pero makatotohanang role ng media sa panahon ngayon, nararapat lamang ang Best Picture Award sa'yo: Jay.

Hindi masakit sa ulo, madaling maintindihan ng kung sinuman ang magiging audience at truly pinoy at the very core, man, panalo ang mga take two's!

Ang sarap talagang manood sa UPFI, pare-pareho kayong tumatawa at the right cue. Hmm.. Malamang sa mall cinemas ay napalabas na kaming lahat kakasigaw at kakatili at kaka-boo...

Cleaning Out my Closet

Note: this piece was a lame attempt to capture an ispirational phase in my so-called life 4 months ago. Just want to get it off my USB once and for all. Am not good in writing. I wish I was, though.

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"If I asked you to take my hand, walk in silence, read my thoughts through my eyes only, for TWO hours, would you?"

I was about to argue the possibility of you spending that two silent hours with ME (my God ME!) when I saw the longing, almost like urgent desperation, in your coffee brown eyes that I shoved back down my throat what was supposedly be my idea of a funny and clever response to your baffling question and decided that, hell, I will gladly take your hand next to my clammy one if it'll take some, if not all, the desolation I swore I saw a few seconds before you hastily turned your back to me.

Surprisingly it took a while before I managed to utter my weak "Of course. Uhm, but where to exactly?"

"Anywhere. Just get me as far away as possible in this miserable, little shit of town."

There again. The underlying tone of desperation in your voice. Wonder what made you feel that way in the first place. Trouble brewing at home? Nah. Work? Injustice? Politics? Her? I don't think so. Especially that. You'd probably run first to your friends and talk about it over some booze and smokes rather than discuss it with me. Besides, we never really delved into that subject because you don’t want to and because I can’t ask you to. So exactly why are you running to me now huh?

“Are you alright?”

No reply. Just the wind howling in the background.

Okay. So I guess this is where the “no talking” probably starts. I shrugged myself, downed a deep breath and took your hand. Your right to my left.

At first you looked like you were startled at me for taking your hand but then you looked straight ahead again and I brushed it off as maybe a figment of my reality gone awry.

And so we walked without me having the vaguest idea on where to lead you, whatever happened to you and why the hell my heart wants to explode at that very moment.

This isn’t how I imagined it to be. This isn’t how I placed meeting you alone. And this is definitely not the way I wished for you to come and see me finally.

Leo

Nakakatawa lang talaga na even after all this time ay natatandaan, at patuloy na tinatanong/inaasar, ng mga kaopisina ko sakin si Leo. Kelan daw ba nila makikilala ang mahiwagang si Leo? Na paulit-ulit ko namang sinasagot pero sadyang ayaw nilang maniwala. Teka, e sino nga ba kasi si Leo? At ano ba ang papel nya sa buhay ko?

Well, nagsimula ang lahat nung Valentine’s Eve. Niyaya ko si Kimi na manood ng Endo, meaning sya ang ka-date ko for Valentine’s day. E kaso sumunod yung boypren nya dun sa Glorietta so kamusta naman? It turned out ay nanood ako ng sine na may kasamang mag-syota, parang kumuha ka lang ng asin na ibubudbod sa sarili mong sugat. So much for girls night out. Anyway, sa mga hindi pa nakakapanood ng Endo (as in end of contract), medyo love story sya. Light movie na lahat ay paniguradong makaka-relate sa mga karakter nina Jason Abalos at Ina Feleo. Panoorin nyo na lang. O kaya hanapin nyo sa youtube yung trailer. Produkto ng Cinemalaya, kaya maganda!

Pagkatapos naming manood (at maglaro ng sandali sa Timezone) e nagmamadali na kaming makaalis kasi may pasok pa kami ni Kimi (that time ay panggabi pa sya). Pero on the way ay napagtripan namin na kumain ng heart-shaped Chocolate Cake na naka-display sa Brownies. Ang sarap kasing tignan. Pero dahil hindi naubos as usual ay ako na naman ang naatasang mag-uwi at dalhin sa office ang leftovers. Tsaka pumasok ang brilyanteng idea sa utak netong Kimimay at Ryan na sulatan daw namin yung cake na From:______ at To: Marye para magmukang may nagbigay daw sakin na isang secret admirer. Ampohtek. Well, medyo pathetic na pala pakinggan ngayon kapag ineexplain ko pero I guess nung mga panahong yun lahat kami naisip na nakakatuwang ideya naman sya. Oo. Pumayag ako dahil jologs ako. Tsaka wala namang mawawala sakin.

Kaso medyo nagkahirapan sa pag-iisip kung anong pwedeng posibleng pangalan ng imaginary admirer ko. Pero in the end ay sinabi ni Kimi na Leo na lang, mula sa pangalan ng karakter ni Jason Abalos sa Endo.

Ayun. Pagdating ko sa opisina katakut-takot na asaran at tanungan kung sino si Leo. Haha. Pero syempre sinabi ko naman na si Leo ay kathang-isip lamang. Hindi sya nag-eexist, na bunga lamang sya ng hindi patas na pagtrato sa mga taong walang other half tuwing Pebrero Katorse, sa komersyalismo ng araw na yun at sa perwisyond idinudulot nito sa sa lahat ng single sa buong Maynila, sa buong Pilipinas, sa buong Mundo! Ayon, sa awa naman ng Diyos hindi pa rin sila naniwala! Tsk tsk. Kala pa naman daw nila may papakilala na daw ako na boyps sa wakas. Muntik na nga ata silang maniwala na babae pala ko haha. FUNNY.

Halos limang buwan na rin pala ang nakakaraan pero tingnan mo nga naman, buhay na buhay pa rin si Leo. To the point na napaisip pa ko ng malalim at ina-analyze na ko ng mga tao.

Oh well, someday darating din siguro ang totoong Leo ko na magshe-share sakin ng earphones nya, magreregalo ng tsinelas, kasamang maglalakad sa ilalim ng buwan at syempre, magbibigay sakin ng heart-shaped chocolate cake tuwing araw ng mga puso.

Reminiscing

Ever remember "The Wonder Years"? That Kevin Arnold-Winnie Cooper 70s kid? Weell I did. Just now. Cos that's exactly where I got the bestest line I've ever heard that truly captured a kid's heart.

All our young lives we search for someone to love. Someone who makes us complete. We choose partners and change partners. We dance to a song of heartbreak and hope... all the while wondering if somewhere, somehow, there's someone perfect... who might be searching for us."

Oh, yeah… Love. Once upon a time, it was…simple. If you liked somebody, you let 'em know. And if you didn't, you let 'em know. One way or another, you knew where you stood. But as you get older, communication gets more…complicated.

Oh brother i am such an old school. Gusto ko nang tanggapin na ako'y isang old soul talaga after all these centuries.

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Ay grabe. Everyday should be an Ice Cream day. or kahit once or twice a week man lang. DQ's Brownie Temptation Blizzard is LOVE. mahal nga lang toinks.

Bang, Bang, You're Dead

Okay. For the record, this has been a very underrated movie in my opinion when in fact it should be shown everywhere.

Kahit ganito ang Pilipinas, I'm thankful that i don't, we don't, have to experience the American kind of status quo in their schools. Although I cannot say much for those who went to private schools cos I know they have a totally different world out there. But man, who wants to be bullied?? Who ever wanted to be pushed, especially by some popular or ruling people in their classes? Everybody just want to be accepted, to have their own life and have peace in it. Every kid just want to enjoy high school! goshdarnit why do people have to be so mean, mean, mean. Everyone should meet kindness. It doesn't take much to be nice to other people. Gaaahhd.

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oh and totally unrelated stuff. i LOVE you Ben Foster for that. Kasama ka na nina Tony Leung, Shia LaBeouf, Milo Ventimiglia, Michael Cera at Patrick Stump sa mga unreachable boys ng buhay ko.

Isang malaking BAKIT??!

Bakit ba walang gumagawa ng mga kantang para sa mga taong naging tulay ng kasiyahan ng ibang tao, sa mga taong araw-araw umuuwi mag-isa na walang sumasalubong sa kanila, sa mga taong matagal nang hindi nakikita kaibigan nila, sa mga taong responsableng tumatawid sa kalsada, sa mga taong matapos magtyagang makinig sa problema ng iba ay lalayasan din pala?

Bakit walang gumagawa ng kanta tungkol sa mga taong naiiyak sa tuwing nakikitang pumapatak ang ulan, sa mga taong willing maghintay kahit gano pa katagal, sa mga taong palagi na lang pinaghihintay, sa mga taong allergic sa manok, sa mga taong may phobia sa manhole, sa mga taong hindi makatulog sa gabi hangga't hindi pa nila naririnig ang boses ng isang tao?

Andami-dami pa actually.

Palagi na lang tungkol sa kanilang mga broken-hearted, iniwanan, third party, two-timers, in love, hindi pinapansin ng mahal nila at kung anu-ano pa. Meron pa ngang kanta tungkol sa alak, sa condom, sa aso, sa kabayo, sa anino. Pero sa mga taong sawang-sawa na sa rejection ng ibang tao wala man lang makaisip magsulat.

Hindi ko lang siguro alam pero baka kahit papano ay may gumawa na rin pala ng mga kanta tungkol sa nabanggit ko pero ang point ay hindi sila kasing popular at mainstream ng mga kantang normal na pinatutugtog sa kaliwa't kanan. Paano na lang ang mga taong di nakaka-relate?

The Loneliest Person I know

...is thankfully not me. I’m not egocentric enough to claim the title. It still belongs to someone out there, someone who’s far more worthy, somehow.

I’m not sure if anyone follows my evident lack of social life (or what I actually reckon as social activities) for 6 whole weeks. Heck I’m sure nobody give a tinker’s dam of my whereabouts, whatabouts and other abouts for it is always I who ends up asking everyone how-are-you-what-have-you-been-up-to-i-miss-you-did-you-ever-miss-me kinda line. In a nutshell, I am bored and lonesome. Again.

For the record, there’re only two activities I’ve done with some friends that I could count as social interaction in the span of 6 weeks:

1) Watching Virgin Labfest 4 plays at CCP with Ed and Tbud: and
2) DVD-marathon at Juraine’s place (with Kimi) that more likely turned out as surfing marathon. Haha.

And I am utterly grateful for breaking the humdrum of my so-called life.

So where am I all these time? E di at work, working overtime, abusing my eyes and right hand (and I guess damaging my carpal tunnel in the process too) for some measly dinero I need to save up before September. I’ve let go of a Tapulao climb because of that and I suppose other more relatively-expensive mountain stuff. I walk home alone everyday, bobbing my head to my life-support music thus sometimes attracting odd glances from here and there, smiling with security guards I passed by everyday. Kulang na lang I shout "good morning" to all those construction workers I see too but that would be too much drama na and I don’t want to push it. Just showing a clear picture of my eventful days for those who would want to have an idea.

Alas, it still brings me wonder that I am able to find ways to entertain myself in such a muted and mind you, cheap fashion. Of course I have no choice but to be cheapskate. All the laziness I’ve felt a few weeks ago with regards to writing, reading and watching free films have come back. I’ve picked up Elmore Leonard again (yipeee!) but mostly it was Lance Armstrong’s fault. Yes. The Lance "Tour de France 7th consecutive winner" Armstrong. See I bought his It’s Not About the Bike book in (where else) Booksale and wooosh, never stopped reading. Even made me madly addicted to everything Tour-de-France: maillot jaune, maillot vert, peloton, l’Alpe d’Huez, CUI, Tour d’Italia, EPO, Eddy Merckkx, Ivan Basso, Greg LeMond, Giro, dingy inns, Team Time Trial, Prologue, etc.. But hey, I’m still learning. Still have a lot to read and watch about the sport. Funny how it coincided pa with this year’s Tour. As of today they’re probably on Stage 7 there. Stefan Schumacher leads, wearing the maillot jaune. I really admire the talent, stamina, endurance and extreme will power of these athletes plus their quirky and unwritten code of ethics while on the road.Basta, I will probably write a more elaborate piece on this as soon as inspiration kicks back.

All I can say is, halimaw si Lance. Even though early on the book he already strike me as mayabang and vain (which he openly admits). But seriously, with all he’s been through (chemotheraphy for his testicular cancer, brain lesions operation and SEVEN maillot jaune), the guy deserved it. At least he knows who to thank at the end of each race (his team mates of course, without which there could never be a yellow jersey on his back). Oh if you wanna see pala some evidence of European’s total dislike to American Lance, everything’s in youtube nowadays. Don’t miss "Lance Armstrong attacks Jan Ullrich". Ay grabe, give me some of your thoughts and we’ll discuss it hehe.

Okay. So much for digression. I guess, I owe it to Lance somehow no matter how indirectly it seems cos at least I’m picking up books now, made me write this entry and I guess, for not making me the loneliest person out here.

Stuff I'm Totally Digging Right Now

YES. I am actually trying my best to keep track of these world class cyclists.


Alejandro Valverde of Spain won the first stage of the tour therefore earning him the privilege to wear the coveted maillot jaune.

Zach Braff. Bakit sya? well, im a sucker for nerds/geeks/dorks, and he's definitely a nerd in his own way. At, mind you hindi sya gwapo ha, pero he has that something I can't quite put my fingers to. Go watch Garden State, Scrubs series or The Last Kiss to know what i mean.



This book.




Sherpas.

Blimey

haven't read a book for quite a while now and i'm missing it dearly. though i have this book na binabalik-balikan sa powerbooks shang, kahit yun hindi ko pa rin matapus-tapos. i dunno. lately ay tinatamad akong magkikilos. usually the stuffs i enjoy the most are the stuffs na hindi ko pinapansin ngayon. hmm..im sure i was avoiding something lang.

as for other news, i still can't seem to get over the Celtics-Lakers match up. ayun, nanood pa ko ng replay kanina when i should've been sleeping way before. Game 4. Best game ever in the series. woot woot!

a big SIGH. Death Cab's having a concert in HK and of course, i can't watch. Helloooo. like that would even be an option to think about. Arrgggghhhh.

You gotta respect Celtics

Ray Allen was definitely the man of game 4. kudos talaga sa big 3 ng Celtics.

Ain't Paul just a darling? I swear that man is super. And I believe with all my heart nung sinabi ni DJ Mo that Pierce is sincerely a nice, nice person.

look at their fashion sense. i mean, i'm no fashionista but in fairness ha, i can see that they do justice to the suits they wore (just like KG) unlike a certain Spaniard on the other team who always looks like he just woke up. Nice taste or stylist i guess??

Geography and Basketball

60

OnePlusYou Quizzes and Widgets

Haha. Na-blangko ako ng mga isang minuto siguro pambihirang patis naman oo. Nakakahiya!

Game 4 bukas. Sheesh. I'm with you Celtics, all the way!

Sige lang.

Minsan may mga bagay at pangyayari na nakakabwiset na lang talaga. At minsan, may mga tao namang nagbibigay sayo na labis-labis na kaligayahan pansamantala ngunit sa isang iglap ay bigla na lang mawawala ng walang babala.

Sige ganyan kayo ngayon. Bukas makalawa, ako naman ang mawawala...

24 years Overdue

because Changes change everything

So little time
Try to understand that I'm
Trying to make a move to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody's changing
And I don't feel the same

~ Everybody's Changing, Keane


Strange fascination, fascinating me
Changes are taking the pace I'm going through

~ Changes, David Bowie

yeah. changes do suck for the most part. and i haaate, hate it. it made me friggin cry.

Happy Holler-Ween!

tamang trip lang.

Photoblog muna!

Instituto Cervantes, panibagong tambayan.

lotsa postcards!

We got greened!

Talooong!

Priceless.

they're killin Pagoy! or not.

At Pepper Steak.

3:49 am Rants

1. Sino ang gumawa at naglapat ng musika sa "Moon River"? Parang napakalungkot ng kantang 'to, pero actually pag pinakinggan at inintindi mo, hindi sya ganun kalungkot. Though nalilito pa rin ako kung pang mag-lovers or bestfriends 'tong kanta na 'to. Or mali lang ako ng pag-interpret. hala.

2. Paano malalaman sa text kung mali na pala ang naihihirit mong linya? Di naman natin malalaman sa reply nila kasi nga wala namang emosyon ang texting. kakainis. di mo tuloy malaman kung natutuwa pa ba o gusto ka nang saksakin ng katext mo. Overrated na kasi smileys ngayon. Puro hahaha, hehehe,huhuhu, hihihi (hohoho???) na lang ginagamit. So ngayon, pano nga sinusulat ang naiiritang nagagalit na??hmm.

3. Ang ganda ganda sana ng kantang Listen ng Stonefree pero nakakainis/nakakalungkot talaga sya actually.

“…Stay with me til she comes back.” .
HELLOOOO!!!

4. Nasan na kaya yung kauna-unahang anti-social na kaibigan ko? Nakabuntis na ata nyaha. Marami lang akong gustong itanong sa’yo sana..but then again, wala ka nga.

5. May nakakaalam/nakakaalala ba sainyo ng 10-part mini-series na Band of Brothers? Yung pinalabas sa HBO around 2001 ata yun. Namiss ko lang bigla in connection of number 4.

6. Tulungan nyo kong magpataba at magpalakas! I must, MUST climb Guiting-Guiting. And then I can finally quit mountains. Or NOT!

7. Napapadalas na ata pagtitig ko sa kawalan. Pati sa opisina nadadala ko na. E sa ang sarap tumunganga..

8. Man.Oh.Man. CHOCOLATE is the answer. Pramis!

9. Kung hindi para sa’yo, hindi nga. Wag nang pilitin. Pero pano kung gusto mong maging sa’yo? Kung gustung-gusto mong ipilit na maging para sa’yo na lang? Malaking problema. May kilala ko may ganitong sitwasyon, aba, MAHIRAP. Super kaduper.

10. Lastly, pick the right girl you’d want to ignore. At least think first if she deserves it. Hotdaym.

My First Postcard

Galing kay Kimi. That's the Venetian Hotel sa Macau. Though sa Macau nya 'to binili, sa HongKong na nya naihulog haha. :)

Happy 3rd Bloggie!

yes. it's that time of the year once again and i can't believe how fast everything seems to fly. 3 years ago, i found an online outlet to (sometimes) pour my heart out because i know that in here, nobody much will care. cos after all, what's another pained soul in the web compared to the million bloggers out there?

yey for us!

Darnit

Setting your goals, or i believe ambitions, too high can be pretty devastating. Just when you thought everything's a-ok, your bubble of happiness suddenly bursts and poof, hello bitter reality. One thing I know, and must accept thought, I ain't special beybi, never was. But I believe in this: if you're gonna fall, fall high anyway. What's pain nowadays huh?

Missing Pagoygoy...

Because the darn kid is in Hongkong and Macau. Lucky Pagong!

One Word.

Masaya!

woot!

it's that time of the year when some butterflies come crashing in your stomach and you can't keep that darn smile off of your face when you most probably looked like a freaking raccoon. oh, the irony of it all. but what-the-hey, if it's what can sustain me in the wee hours of morning, then im all yours beybeh..
on the other hand, lemme think if he recognize this girl oogling at him.

Endo at Juno

Last tuesday ay nanood ako ng Endo, (kadeyt ko ay maglabiduds hmpp). Simple lang sya pero maganda and I think, lahat ng makakapanood ng Endo ay makaka-relate paminsan-minsan. Quirky at aliw ang mga linya lalo na ni Tanya (puhretty Ina Feleo) at may mga pamatay na linya din si Leo. Katulad nito:

Leo: "Mahal kita kahit iiwan mo 'ko."
yun yun eh.

Ang Juno naman ay punung-puno ng mga malulupit na linya courtesy of Juno syemps.At maganda ang soundtrack ha! Dito ko narealize na gusto ko ang mga role ni Michael Cera (as in Superbad Evan and Paulie Bleeker) and he's the ultimate dork actor.
Some lines from the movie:

Juno McGuff: Yea, you just take Soupy-Sales to prom I can think of so many cooler things to do that night. Like, you know what Bleek? I might pummus my feet, uh, I might go to Bren's Unitarian Church, maybe get hit by a truck full of hot garbage juice, you know? Cause all those things, would be exponentially cooler than going to prom with you.

Paulie Bleeker: You're being really immature... You have no reason to be mad at me, I mean, you know, you broke MY heart. I should be royally ticked off at you. I should be really cheesed off, I shouldn't want to talk to you anymore.

Juno : What? Cause I got bored and had sex with you and I didn't want to like marry you?

Paulie: Like I'd marry you! You'd be the meanest wife ever, okay? And I know that you weren't bored that day because there was a lot of stuff on TV, and then 'The Blair Witch Project' was coming on Starz and you were like 'I haven't seen this since it came out and if so we should watch it' and 'but oh, no, we should just make out instead la la la'

Juno: You just take Katrina Von douchebag to prom. I'm sure you two will have like a real bitchin' time

Paulie: Well, I still have your underwear!

Pero ito ang pinakapaborito kong linya ni Juno sa buong movie:

"As far as boyfriends go, Paulie Bleeker is totally boss. He is the cheese to my macaroni."
ahww shocks. wala na kong nasabi.

well someday, i'd find the cheese to my macaroni, the peanutbutter to my jelly, the kape to my pandesal or the asin to my duhat. Pero sa ngayon, mamatay muna ko sa pagsilay sa isang taong hinding-hindi ako makikita. Thank goodness for imagination!