Holiday Edition

Happy Christmas Y'all!

Si direk Tomer at iba pang litrato

Ayan na si Direk Tomer Heymann. Blurry yung pichur kasi sa phone ni Van galing haha. at hindi sya mukhang gwapo dyan pero swear gwapo sya sa Paperdolls habang nag-iinterview.

Bida ang baka sa may summit ng Gulugd Baboy. At ayun, kita nga pala ang sombrero islands.

Trip ko lang gawing collage. anyhoo di ko pa ina-upload yung mga pichurs lahat. Yung iba nasa draft lang kasi di pa kumpleto lahat.

** from left to right top: me, kimi. ate patty and ate les. bottom: laren, kuya mok, kuya mike and ryan (with kimi).

Usapang Boys

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Last Sunday while I was browsing some books in a bookstore, some random guy came out of nowhere asked me about my opinion on what's the best stuff to give to a down friend. Naman. Syempre nagulat ako. At ang naisagot ko na lang ay "what do you mean by down?" I know it sounded lame or certified bobo but it was all I could manage to say. And he said yaddah yaddah, blah, blah, blah. I don't really want to be rude kaya ayun sinasagot ko naman ng matino yung mga tanong nya. Okay lang daw ba na book ang ibigay nya and if book nga what type naman daw. E nung mga panahong yun ang naisip ko agad ay chicklit. And I guess hindi pa nga nya ko naintindihan kasi iniba nya yung usapan. How about Harry Potter daw? Sabi ko okay lang din naman. Tsaka nya ko tinanong ngayon kung mahilig daw akong magbasa na nasagot ko na lang ng simpleng "medyo". My goodness. Nagulat ako sa sinagot nya ha. Sabi nya "wala sa itsura mo ang isang bookworm ah". Duh. Kelan pa nadaan sa itsura ang pagiging bookish. Nerdy glasses are so yesterday. Hanggang sa maiba na naman ang usapan dahil tinanong na ko kung ano ba ang course ko. Pambihira. Nung sinabi kong Geography sabi nya ay kakaiba daw yun. Mahirap daw ba yun kesa sa Sociology? hay. I hate it when some people pretend that they know something about some things when in fact they don't actually have a clue of what they're talking about. Susme. Hindi naman mahirap aminin na wala kang alam paminsan-minsan. Ako madalas akong ganun hehe. Medyo marami pa syang sinabi bago nya finally itinanong na medyo hindi ata common yung course na yun. So saan bang school ko kinuha yun. Nung narinig nya yung sagot ko sabi nya "so, matalino ka pala?" na sinagot ko nang isang malaking "Ngek" na sinagot naman nya ng "ang yabang naman". O kamon. Seriously?!Ako na nga na nagbigay ng oras para kausapin sya kahit medyo creepy paminsan-minsan yung mga sinasagot nya, ako na nagmamagandang-loob lang naman. It was the most uncomfortable 20 minutes of my life.

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Nung Monday naman ay nagpunta ko sa UP after quite some time to watch a free Israeli movie. Keyword: free. Kasama ng ilang orgmates ay pinanood namin ang isang mala-documentary ng mga Filipino OFWs sa Israel entitled Paperdolls. By day ay mga caregivers sila but by night ay nagta-transform into drag queens. Ayun maganda naman. Before mag-start yung film ay nagkaron ng maikling speech yung director nung movie na si Tomer Heyman. Gosh. He's so gwapo. Naka-shorts, t-shirt at backpack lang sya. Crushable talaga as in. Pero as the film was progressing, pambihirang patis. Narealize namin na bading si papa Tomer! Sabay-sabay na lang kaming napabuntung-hininga. Sayang naman. Ang ganda rin ng naging relasyon nya dun sa mga Pinoy workers sa tel Aviv. Tinutulungan nya and everything. Sobrang gulat sya na sa bansa natin ay okay lang na magcross-dress ang mga bading at mag-out kasi sa Israel it's a big NO NO. Nagpa-picture na din kami after nung screening and I think I'm gonna post it as soon as Van uploads it.

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Kelan lang ay napanood ko ang Y Tu Mama Tambien. Opo. Super delayed ko na sya napanood considering na sa UP ako nag-aral. Anyhoo, ayun grabe. Gael Garcia Bernal is love. He speaks Spanish, English, Portuguese, French and Italian. E sino naman talagan di maiinlab sa kanya!Kaso ang awkward na part ay eto. Since kahawig talaga ni Gael si Ping gosh para ko na ring naiimagine na hubad si Ping wahaha. nakakahiya actually. Pero ang galing nilang dalawa ni Diego Luna dun ha. Aliw sila, bagets na bagets pa.

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About time. Matt Damon finally bagged the Sexiest Man Alive for 2007. I mean hello? What took the People staff so long to figure it out. Kudos to Matt. He definitely deserves it. By the way, ang galing nya sa Bourne Supremacy (grabeng pelikula yun astiiig!) at The Talented Mr. Ripley (kapapanood ko lang kasi sa 2 pelikulang yun).

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I gotta admit this. Oo. Isa rin ako sa mga taong nanuod ng One More Chance at nahumaling sa character ni John Lloyd na si Popoy (pero hindi sa lahat ng scenes). Nakakaawa kasi pag umiiyak sya, yung kalungkutan nya ay nakaka-touch at syempre pamatay ang mga linya nya! Paborito ko ay yung part na nagwala sya sa restaurant at sinabi nya kay Basya (Bea) na "ang sakit-sakit na". Wahaaat! Syempre napakwento na naman kami ni Honey sa hatest subject namin. Lovelife. Tsk, tsk.

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Lastly. Medyo naadik lang ako ngayon sa boses ni Justin Pierre (hence my recently downloaded songs of MCS). There's something I couldn't quite put words about him and their music. That's him with his signature looks: glasses, wild hair and sideburns. Another phase yea.

Nothing's gonna change my world..

The movie I've been waiting for. Kelan kaya 'to ire-release sa Pinas. I'm not a Beatles fan pero dinownload ko na ang soundtrack ng movie na 'to. Yeah!

Sappy-in-a-hopeless-romantic-sort-of-mood

Lester Bangs. Marcus Flutie. Jess Mariano. Adam Rove. Pacey Witter. Patrick Martin Stump. Shia LaBeouf.

Kung hindi fictional characters ang mga natitipuhan ko (more of patay na patay actually) e mga high-end-at-di-mareach na mga tao naman yung iba. syet. nakakadepressed lang.

Marcus Flutie, kelan ba kita makikilala? kailangan ko bang bumalik sa pagka-hayskul para lang ma-meet ka? Jess Mariano. My bad-ass-punk-bookworm-kind-of-guy. Wala ka bang real counterpart in flesh? Adam Rove. Dahil sappy ka ay lurve kita. Pacey Witter. Hands down ikaw pa rin ang paborito kong Dawson's Creek character. Patrick MArtin Stump. boses mo lang e naiiyak na ko at di pa rin ako maka-get-over sa'yo bwiset. Shia. wala nakong masabi kasi 14 years old pa lang tayo ay magkakilala na tayo.

I am so hopeless. Honestly.

Nakailan nga ba ako?

Picked this one up from someone while bloghopping. Well, basta may kinalaman sa libro, all my senses turns a notch up.

The rules are simple. In the following list of a hundred books, bold the ones you’ve read, mark in blue the ones you want to read, mark in red the ones you don’t want to read (dahil ayaw mo lang, or di mo feel talaga kahit title pa lan or you've already heard that it was no good daw.), italicize the ones you’ve never heard of, and… well, don’t do anything with the ones you feel indifferent towards, I guess, or that you wouldn’t mind reading but aren’t dying to.

1. The DaVinci Code (Dan Brown)
2. Pride and Prejudice (Jane Austen)
3. To Kill A Mockingbird (Harper Lee)
4. Gone With The Wind (Margaret Mitchell)
5. The Lord of the Rings: Return of the King (Tolkien)
6. The Lord of the Rings: Fellowship of the Ring (Tolkien)
7. The Lord of the Rings: Two Towers (Tolkien)
8. Anne of Green Gables (L.M. Montgomery)
9. Outlander (Diana Gabaldon)
10. A Fine Balance (Rohinton Mistry)
11. Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire (Rowling)
12. Angels and Demons (Dan Brown)
13. Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix (Rowling)
14. A Prayer for Owen Meany (John Irving)
15. Memoirs of a Geisha (Arthur Golden)
16. Harry Potter and the Sorcerer’s Philosopher’s Stone (Rowling)
17. Fall on Your Knees (Ann-Marie MacDonald)
18. The Stand (Stephen King)
19. Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban (Rowling)
20. Jane Eyre (Charlotte Bronte)
21. The Hobbit (Tolkien)
22. The Catcher in the Rye (J.D. Salinger)
23. Little Women (Louisa May Alcott)
24. The Lovely Bones (Alice Sebold)
25. Life of Pi (Yann Martel) (hindi ko pa natatapos...)
26. The Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy (Douglas Adams) (wala lang akong mahiraman o pambili eh..maybe soon!)
27. Wuthering Heights (Emily Bronte)
28. The Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe (C. S. Lewis)
29. East of Eden (John Steinbeck)
30. Tuesdays with Morrie (Mitch Albom)
31. Dune (Frank Herbert)
32. The Notebook (Nicholas Sparks)
33. Atlas Shrugged (Ayn Rand)
34. 1984 (Orwell)
35. The Mists of Avalon (Marion Zimmer Bradley)
36. The Pillars of the Earth (Ken Follett)
37. The Power of One (Bryce Courtenay)
38. I Know This Much is True (Wally Lamb)
39. The Red Tent (Anita Diamant)
40. The Alchemist (Paulo Coelho)
41. The Clan of the Cave Bear (Jean M. Auel)
42. The Kite Runner (Khaled Hosseini)
43. Confessions of a Shopaholic (Sophie Kinsella)
44. The Five People You Meet In Heaven (Mitch Albom)
45. The Bible
46. Anna Karenina (Tolstoy)
47. The Count of Monte Cristo (Alexandre Dumas)
48. Angela’s Ashes (Frank McCourt) (malapit ko nang matapos..)
49. The Grapes of Wrath (John Steinbeck)
50. She’s Come Undone (Wally Lamb)
51. The Poisonwood Bible (Barbara Kingsolver)
52. A Tale of Two Cities (Dickens)
53. Ender’s Game (Orson Scott Card)
54. Great Expectations (Dickens)
55. The Great Gatsby (Fitzgerald)
56. The Stone Angel (Margaret Laurence)
57. Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets (Rowling)
58. The Thorn Birds (Colleen McCullough)
59. The Handmaid’s Tale (Margaret Atwood)
60. The Time Traveller’s Wife (Audrew Niffenegger)
61. Crime and Punishment (Fyodor Dostoyevsky)
62. The Fountainhead (Ayn Rand)
63. War and Peace (Tolstoy)
64. Interview With The Vampire (Anne Rice)
65. Fifth Business (Robertson Davis)
66. One Hundred Years Of Solitude (Gabriel Garcia Marquez)
67. The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants (Ann Brashares) (I've watched the movie though..)
68. Catch-22 (Joseph Heller)
69. Les Miserables (Hugo) (hindi matapus-tapos!)
70. The Little Prince (Antoine de Saint-Exupery)
71. Bridget Jones’ Diary (Fielding)
72. Love in the Time of Cholera (Marquez)
73. Shogun (James Clavell)
74. The English Patient (Michael Ondaatje) (isa pang hindi ko rin natapos..)
75. The Secret Garden (Frances Hodgson Burnett)
76. The Summer Tree (Guy Gavriel Kay)
77. A Tree Grows in Brooklyn (Betty Smith)
78. The World According to Garp (John Irving)
79. The Diviners (Margaret Laurence)
80. Charlotte’s Web (E.B. White)
81. Not Wanted On The Voyage (Timothy Findley)
82. Of Mice And Men (Steinbeck) (nabored ako nung una kong subukang basahin..sa susunod na lang)
83. Rebecca (Daphne DuMaurier)
84. Wizard’s First Rule (Terry Goodkind)
85. Emma (Jane Austen)
86. Watership Down(Richard Adams)
87. Brave New World (Aldous Huxley)
88. The Stone Diaries (Carol Shields)
89. Blindness (Jose Saramago)
90. Kane and Abel (Jeffrey Archer)
91. In The Skin Of A Lion (Ondaatje)
92. Lord of the Flies (Golding)
93. The Good Earth (Pearl S. Buck)
94. The Secret Life of Bees (Sue Monk Kidd)
95. The Bourne Identity (Robert Ludlum)
96. The Outsiders (S.E. Hinton)
97. White Oleander (Janet Fitch) (napanood ko din yung movie neto..)
98. A Woman of Substance (Barbara Taylor Bradford)
99. The Celestine Prophecy (James Redfield)
100. Ulysses (James Joyce)

10th Cine Europa

How 1963. Waaahhh. Boring. Super. Sayang naman ng budget na nilaan dito hehe. Pero malamang naman nung panahon nila e box office of the year to. Hooboy.

Honestly, na-bored ako dito pero in fairness sa ending. I liked it. At least makatotohanan. Mas lalo ko lang di magugustuhan kung in the end ay nagkatuluyan pa rin sina Genevieve at Guy.

Ang ganda ganda ni Clara Lago (as Carol) dito. At akalain mong may prediction akong tumama. Tomiche died waaaahh!!! Think My Girl plot sa kanilang puppy love story.

first movie we saw, kala ko nga censored. hindi naman pala. nakakatuwa pa actually!

Women rocked here! football and romance, whatta combi. nice, nice film. from the same country that brought us One Way Ticket to Mombasa (my fave film last year).

nakakaiyak. maganda. ang kyut kyut ni kolja susme!!!

eto ang pinaka-astig! si fares fares (as Roro) ay cool! Jalla, jalla means "faster, faster". si Mans (yung bestfriend nya rito) kyut kapag ngumingiti. laugh trip din 'to super. kahit anong age bracket tatawa.

picks from the past scenes

Habang nagbabasa ng The Disappearing Room sa sala ng mala-museong tahanan ng mga Fernandez. Hangganda talaga dun gosh.

Some pictures taken from Jarlo's berdey party that happened to fall on a working day. Ang gugulo namen susme! Noon lang din ulit ako nakakain ng Avenetto pizza. Waah!

Nakow. Huling-huli sa aktong naninimot ng ice cream. Courtesy of Kuya Jun (bagong officemate)

Just one of my lame attempts to capture a splendid building. Which is gonna be one of my favorite photography subject someday when I finally get to lay my hands on my own cam.

Kuya Bogs Made me go aaahhhh...HOTNESS!

Grabe wala akong masabi nung makita ko ito. Grabe Ping, you're so gwapo here. Di ko lang mabasa though yung artik..sige, soon.

PenPen ulit! Sana wala ka nang taping nun. :)

Glitz and Glamour News (at least for me)

* hindi ko alam na naoperahan pala si Isaac (Hanson) netong October 2! Well, hindi kami friends pero love ko kasi ang Hanson eversince 12 years old ako (kalalabas lang ng Mmmbop noon). Oh well. But he's all right though. Nakalabas na nga ata ng ospital. Good news from them though is that I just saw their new video from their 4th album "The Walk" entitled "Go" sung by my first real "Hollywood crushie" Zachary Walker Hanson. As in. Simula hanggang matapos. Sheesh. wala na kong masabi. Na-starstruck na naman ako.

*At eto pa. After Radiohead announced that they'll be giving away their new album (more of actually free download lang naman pero kasi di ba...) Oasis and Jamiroquai followed suit. Pero etong usapang libreng ito ay hindi naman talaga daw libre. 45 pence para sa Radiohead downloads and 99 pence for Oasis' song "Lord Don't Slow Me Down". But whatever. I think this is big for them there Brits. Ah. My bestest favorite badass rock band and my 2nd favoritest Brit Rock Band are lurve.

*Nalaman ko lang kanina (finally after 2 0r 3 years is it?) ang buong pangalan ni Nate (of One Tree Hill). Nathan Royal Scott. Naks. How royal it is naman. But still, Lucas Eugene Scott, is my favorite. just because he's sappy. and he reads lotsa lotsa books. and he writes. Can't wait for OTH's season 5 premiere on January!

* Lastly. Kahit paulit-ulit ko pang panoorin ang Don't Matter/Ignition cover ng FOB sa youtube ay hindi ako nagsasawang panoorin (at pakinggan) si Patrick Martin Stump(h). OH jeez. Isa pa syang lurve. And oh, Pete's starting to grow on me too. Medyo love ko na rin sya. Just because I saw that clip where he was holding a Ugandan baby even though he doesn't have the slightest clue on how to properly hold a baby. But that's Pete being Pete. And because he loves Patrick to death he might even kill only for him. Ahhw to the highest power. :p

erm...

kagagaling ko lang isang biglaang lakad. i wish i had a camera that time. boo. at nawa'y matuloy ang pulag climb sa end of november. it would be a dream come true to the nth level. wooo!

that crazy week..in a nutshell (of images)

bunch of kids behind..and an equally uber happy kiddie-me.



frnz or nmez world tour. gaaahhh..not yet over it.. talk to me in about a year then we'll see..




yamin' it up! elliott's crooning in the background..he's so, so nice. i heart him.



work mode..caught in the action. nah. boring stuff. na-displaced kami sa sarili naming working station kaya nandito kami sa lugar ng mga programmers. but the view was great there though..

the power of stills..

chatting with hunnybun last sunday with the whole bermillo family

captured from dean's birthday party in alfonso, cavite (and a bit in tagaytay picnic grove..my first time!) last sept. 1 & 2

my first matino shot of a buiding (hsbc and something building)..i'm excited to have my own cam!!!

the power of capturing your current state

well,well,well.

Maybe I wasn't cut out for this job. I'm not gonna be his ideal kind of worker. I'm not that good. So, magalit ka lang ng magalit. Matatakot lang ako ng matatakot. Butt it's alright. I can cope.

By the way, another thing to be sad about is this. 195 pesos na lang seswelduhin ko sa sunod sa sahod dahil sa glitch na nagawa last time. hooboy. at may babayaran pa kong bahay ng lagay na yan ha. watta week indeed!

i can tell, from the minute i woke up...

How and why exactly, i can't answer it yet. but yeah, i'm getting lonelier and lonelier than ever.

boo-hoo

naiyak naman ako. hindi ko kasi napanood sa big screen ang harry potter and the order of phoenix.to think na i'm a potterhead. huhu. nung time kasi na nagkapera na ko e wala nang pinapalabas na hp sa cinemas, kahit yung sa cebu!

kaya eto, pinatos ko na ang online movie although against yun sa movie codes ko. at simula pa lang ay naiyak na ko. waah i miss you sirius black! sana meron din akong godfather na tulad mo.

oh well. life and its cruelties. :(

All we need are some sunshine!

Just this week, it finally dawned on me why I distanced myself from you. You wouldn't believe the walls I've put up after waking up one day to find myself extremely disliking you (after crushing in on you for about 4 months). Funny how all the things just came out my mouth after talking about it after a long while, they were the perfect words to be exact.

You were increasingly becoming such a depressing person.

I don't know when it started but I'm quite sure that you weren't like that before I started liking you (because I wouldn't even give an effin care if you're already one). Probably those times, you too, were carving your own identity away from every person you know.

Anyway, the bottom line is now i can finally tell them why I became so indifferent towards you. I guess, that's where my fault lie. Leaving.Just.Like.That. But times have changed and as sure as it heals wounds it also rebuilds what was once thought as unthinkable.And we come out of this experience bathe in a brighter and clearer light and a little bit wiser on the side.

Thanks to this sudden rush of insight because I found out something that can propel and help me in my future decisions. I am an inch closer to recognizing myself. See, i realized that I don't want to be romantically involved with depressing people. I mean people who has a very negative and bleak perception in life. I am a happy person despite everything. It's all about perspective, dears. My life is a certified messed-up-topsy-turvy-dysfunctional of some sort and I'm quite glad that I have friends who share the same sentiments (because then you'd really know that you are not alone and not the only freak kid in town). Every imaginable case, certainly there's someone who had to go through it, whether they liked it or not, but they weren't so bad themselves. They turned out just fine. We don't have to be what our folks have become. Well, some days we have to see the good and the beauty out of the bad and the ugly.

But I'm still wondering why I'm drawn to weird people. and them too, to me. Is it because I see the good in them? i see something that's worth noticing despite their heavily guarded auras? well at least somebody said that I make them happy in a way. I mean I make them smile even if they don't want to because it's just not in their nature. I make them talk. I even make them blabber. haha. I'm glad that early on in life, I already decided that I want to be with someone who has a good sense of humor. In everything.

I've been meaning..

to post this ever since i read this on the newspaper two weeks ago. It was just yesterday that it really hit me how big this thing has become. a youtube link of Filipinos in perezhilton.com??! that is really BIG. at least hindi gossip 'to.

so im sure most of you have already heard about it. as for those na hindi pa, well eto na ang mga dancing inmates!

goodness im such a loser in linking kaya eto muna ang kaya kong i-offer.pohtek. time constraints din. i'm so sorry.

http://youtube.com/watch?v=hMnk7lh9M3o

Starstrucked!

When Cinemanila came to UP, syempre hindi ko pinalampas ang pagkakataon na makapanood kahit na di ko man mapanood lahat ng gusto ko dahil sa trabaho. Kung dati kaya kong magbabad sa Cine Adarna pwes, nagbago na ang panahon. huhu.

Bakit ko ba pinanood ang Pisay? Hmm.Syempre dahil kay direk Aureaus Solito! The same guy who brought us Ang Pagdadalaga ni Maximo Oliveros, where I first saw Ping (although napanood na kita syempre sa Rizal pero hindi pa ako aware nun) and look at me now, how BIG a Ping follower I am now. haha. But I'm digressing. Yun nga si direk. Cinemalaya film sya. At akala ko ay konti lang ang manonood kasi school day at medyo maaga ang screening. Big mistake. Pambihirang patis, hindi ko talaga naisip ang mga Pisay People. Ang dami nila as in supeeeeer. Wala pa naman akong ticket kasi kala ko pipila na lang ako sa window para bumili.Grabe, grabe talaga.mga 30 minutes kaming naghintay na papasukin (nakapila ngapala ko sa isang side, kasama ng mga iba pang napangakuan nung organizer, habang pinapapasok lahat ng beauty and the geeks sa theater. hehe. In fairness to them, kahit ginigyera na sila ng mga tao dahil sa tagal at kawalang kasiguruhan, nakapasok pa naman kami at thankfully nakaupo din ako, sa monoblock nga lang. dami kasi talagang tao.Nakakatuwa nandun pala yung mga cast (most of them are Goin Bulilit kids). At ang ganda ng soundtrack.Pramis!

Sa sobrang dami ng tao ay sa ibang exit na kami pinadaan para hindi na namin makasulubong ang mga papasok pa na tao for the next film, Tukso, which unfortunately I can't really watch no matter how badly I want to. huhu. But seeing Ping, Sir Pen and Bajekjek made it all okay.Well, ganun talaga ang tagahanga.

Egis erp!

Pangalawa kong napanood ay ang Best Picture ng recently concluded Cinemalaya 2007: Tribu. Pinilit bumangon kahit puyat pa 'ko and all pero worth it, as in. Yung ibang cast ay nandun, sina Makoy, Pongke at 2 pang guy na hindi ko alam ang pangalan (I'm so sorry!!!).Nagperform sila sa stage before ipalabas ang film. May short talk din si Direk Jim Libiran and a short background with regards to the film, which is actually his thesis. Dun ko (namin) nalaman na some of the cast were given a chance to study in CAL under the great Sir Almario. Grabe mga tsong, pagbutihan nyo ha! May nakitang something si direk sainyo kaya wag nyong sayangin ang chance na binigay sainyo lalo pa't kaunti na lang ang mga batang nabibigyan ng pagkakataon na makapasok sa peyups, sa mahal ng tuition.

Brutal kung brutal. dark kung dark. See our very own Tondo at its best and its worst. Bow ako kay Ms. Malou Crisologo. Sayang wala si Ghe-Ghe sa UP, gusto ko din sana syang makita. Si Sir Vim Nadera, kamusta naman ang binoculars! haha.Si Papa Dom ay dumalo sa lamay.Ayus.

"I love Thugz Angel"

Pero ang best part talaga ng gabi ay nung nakita ko si Howie Severino. Gosh. Na-starstruck ako, hence the title of this entry. Sa sobrang na-overwhelm ako na nakita ko na sya sa wakas, ay napa-"hi Sir" with matching kaway ako sa kanya. And he actually smiled and waved back!!! gosh. mag-isa lang ako niyan ha. on normal days di ko ginagawa yun. sana sunod si Jay Taruc naman. Madami na kong nakitang sikat na tao pero mas drawn talaga ako towards people na hindi super sikat. Sidekicks, kontrabida, artists, underground people, journalists and the likes. mas matutuwa pa ko pag nakita ko si Soliman Cruz, Berting Labra, Paquito Diaz, Subas Herrero, Bayani Casimiro Jr.,Kuya Bodjie at Ate Siena (wrong spelling pa ata), at marami pang iba. Pero syempre inaamin ko na gusto ko ring makita sina Marky Cielo, Sid Lucero at Shia LaBeouf (which is close to impossible!). haha!

As for Tukso, I will wait for you sa Indiesine. So long!

Next destination: 9th Cinemanila International Film Festival. Kahit isa man lang. Volver or The Namesake or Persepolis. malabo na tayong makasilip kay parang Quentin Tarantino. Come on! If I know reserved na lahat ng upuan sa mga higher people. tsktsk. Life.

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hmm..super tahimik ng blog kong ito.wala nang reader kahit isa, aside from me syempre. kahit dati ayaw kong maglagay ng thoughts sa multiply, mukhang mapapadalas na ata. at least kasi doon, may nagogoyo rin ako paminsan-minsan na mag-comment at mag-share ng kanilang two cents. *sniffsniff*

isang mahabang bunung-hininga.

and now i'm reading this..

His third book. And according to him was based, not too loosely, on his own experience on the psych ward of Methodist Hospital, which he entered when he wanted to kill himself in 2004.

Yes.The book is apparently about a 15-year-old kid's bout on depression. bakit ba ito ang nahugot ko out of all the books in the world?! but golly, its a good catch. tsktsk. who's to say we are normal or abnormal, sane or insane? I say NO one.

Plus the guy was really young when he started writing books, at least that I know from staying too much in bookLOVEstores. and apparently, he too, can't wait for August 10, 2007. About time Detective James Carter and Chief Inspector Lee would be back on the big screen. Hiiyaaa!

You Got Me Thinking Real Deep and Hard

Sometimes, there are books that pushes you farther than it should be pushing you (or at least me anyway) in a normally perfect, ordinary way. Well, this was that kind of book that really kept my interest to the limits of my, well, very limited frame of mind. I am quite sure and really believe that I was never meant for greatness nor vagueness. I am SO ordinary (although there are times that I actually feel and believe that I am extraordinary din pala haha) it's so boring. Blame it on the past.


Anyway, the book is so beautiful and nice and wonderful and life-awakening-but-not-in-a-preachy-manner (most of the times) nauubusan na ako ng pang-describe.hehe. Even in my early-20-years, I've always digged Young Adult Literature. Kasi you can never go wrong with it. I was so affected that I started mulling over my present-state-of-life again. As if I never get to do that often. Pero in a different light this time. After reading it, i desperately wanted to start a new hobby, one that's interesting it could actually take me years to accomplish it. I guess the point really is having a goal that is different than your any other goals in life. And i absolutely agree with Jeremy Fink's father's idea that we all do need a little adventure in this life. Hmm.Sana sa next life ko ay magawa ko din yun. haha.


i don't want to encourage everyone to read it because we have different views and all, what I want though, is if you ever get a chance to read it, just do. Wala pa namang namatay dahil lang sa pagbabasa ng isang sinuggest di ba? I think.


After all, it's not everyday that you give thoughts on what the meaning of life is.
Sana may magregalo nito sakin someday, somehow.

Stuff to look forward

1. First on the lists, of course, PAYDAY. Not much explanation needed.
2. FALL OUT BOY is friggin coming in the Philippines!!! I will really try my best to save enough money to watch it on September 21 with Kimi. And if things still doesn't look up that much by then, I'd always have you to back me up di ba?! Haha.
3. Watch TV. Even the simple joy of watching the tube is rather getting harder and harder.
4. Reading A Mango-Shaped Space, Leap Day and soon-to-come Heaven Looks A Lot Like the Mall all by the great,great Wendy Mass. I found her in Fully Booked one lazy Sunday, read the summary, ayun, stayed 3 hours there (freezing) just to finish the book. And I later found out there's not much Wendy Mass presence in Powerbooks. Geez.
5. Watch Dokumentaryo. Syempre it's for free so why not, chocnut!
6. Mapaayos si blooey. huhuhu.
7.Kumain.

paradoxically speaking..

one of the best cinemas in the country is practically in the backyard of our office building. that's why it's killing me that Luna Lovegood is having the time of her life and Sirius Black is freaking-gonna-die-on-this, but i cannot, in any condition, be able to watch it til after who-knows when. goshdarnit!

and oh, i swear i'm gonna go for a kill for anyone who's gonna divulge the happenings in Hallows. I totally agree with Chico (..and Delamar) that they would have to go to jail (at least for the time being though) for talking about it. ha!

i am so happy i was able to surf the net after a two-week hiatus.gawd. i have so many things to tell. for starters, the kid beside me is SO annoying.

and i hate Margaret "Meg" Murry. I adore Bumblebee. And looking forward to sharing a donut with our homie Homer Simpson. D'oh!

Kimi in the byline!

Yeah, my good friend Kimi shared the limelight with her nanay in a recent article (June 24, 2007) in Philippine Daily Inquirer. Tita Babeth wrote the article and Kimi, took the pichurs of their Hong Kong escapade last Holy Week. Amazing huh! To read your name in the country's most read newspaper would definitely count as a big achievement. Way to go kimimay!

Although in the link here there's only one pichur shown, in the newspaper, however, there were five. Meaning you haven't seen the other 4 yet. Basta, just click the link below and enjoy!

http://showbizandstyle.inquirer.net/lifestyle/lifestyle/view_article.php?article_id=72942

Sa kinahaba ng prusisyon, hindi talaga ako pang-CC, sapagkat...

ako'y meant to be a GIS Specialist after all pala!!! Thank You Lord! You know very well how much the road to my own future job was paved not in gold and nice confetti..s..er whatever the plural form of confetti is. haha! at least in Geodata I don't have to talk in freaking fakey english (with matching neutralize accent kuno!).

maraming salamat sa lahat ng mga kaibigan at "familial" beings who supported me all the way, without a doubt. Alam mo kung sino ka! :) gosh, i can't wait to finish my 2-year-bond with the company kasi after then, eligible na kong mag-apply as a GIS Specialist sa UN Africa. Woohoo!

Okay. So matagal pa yun, but hey, I've been dreaming for so long now I practically know too well that dreams, sometimes, do come true.

Amen.

The PBB fanatic that I am

Gosh.Wendybitch talaga. Kung ikukumpara sa mga reaksyon ng mga tao sa peyups thread, napaka-sweet pa ng reaksyon kong ito. Nuknukan na at sukdulan na talaga ng sama yung babaeng yun. Sana naririnig nya lahat ng lumalabas sa bibig nya no, mga pangbaback-fight na ginawa nya sa loob ng bahay. In the first place, she shouldn't be there at all after she was voted out e. Pero since malakas nga daw talaga sya sa ABS management, ayun nasa loob pa rin at nagkakalat ng lagim.

ever since day one ay sinubaybayan ko na ang PBB season 2 and i know where I'm coming from. Marami na rin naman din akong nabasang feedbacks from other viewers and followers and i can say that this reality show started to stink eversince she came back and made a loser out of Bruce Quebral. My goolay nakakataas talaga ng dugo! Magsama kayong dalawa mga hindi nag-iisip at masama ang ugali!

Kudos to you geeann for realizing the manipulative b*tch that she is and for standing for that belief. don't worry hindi lang naman pamilya mo ang nagmamahal sa'yo. you'd actually be surprised sa dami nila, sa dami namin. Kaya mo yan! You've grown so much and that's really good.

BB G-Ann
BB Beatriz

Although hindi ako bumoboto. :)

Batch 2000 High School Reunion

Lots of things has been said and revealed, much to my own amazement. Inaamin ko naman na andami ko talagang hindi alam at madami na rin talaga akong na-missed. Although it was so awkward at first (at least para sakin lang), as the night went on, so were the kakulitans of the old IV-1 guys and gals came out.

I'm really happy for everything na tinatamasa ng lahat ng mga classmates and friends ko and i was really thankful that though a lot of things may have changed, some, at least some never did. Mabuhay tayong lahat!

Pagmumuni-muni

Wala pa akong nabalitaang nakapagsulat kung ilan ang kayang mahalin ng tao sa buong buhay nya. Wala pa kong narinig na balita kung ilang tao ang pwedeng manakit sa'yo ng minsan o paulit-ulit man.Wala pa kong nabasa kung gaano kalaki ang kapasidad ng ating puso na magmahal, masaktan, magpatawad at makalimot.

Ang alam ko lang ay eto: ayon sa The Corrs, "a heart can only take so much".

Pero ang kasagutan ay parang matatagpuan kay Zelda Fitzgerald, na nagsabing "Nobody has ever measured, not even poets, how much the human heart can hold".

Hmm. Na-overwhelmed na naman siguro ko masyado sa mga pangyayari sa buhay ko, mabuti man o masama.Kung kelang nakalimutan mo nang maging masaya sa "malalaking" bagay, babatuhin ka ng maraming small things. Hindi ko na iniinda, ako pa ang binato mo.

Bilanggo....no more

kasabay ng paggunita sa kalayaan ng Pilipinas nating mahal ay lumaya din ako pansamantala sa mga multo sa aking buhay.

andami kong gustong ikwento kasi naman antagal ko ding nawala di ba pero it'll have to wait.if it can.

for the mean time, go wave that flag!!

Happy Indie Phili!!!

"Let Me Hear Your Balalaikas Ringing Out"

gushing over gilmore girls right now. i missed watching this mother and daughter show. :(
i am so wanting to watch every dvd of every show that i've missed. sigh.

i heart HEROES

the two best heroes that i am soooo lovin!

Masi Oka a.k.a. Hiro Nakamura

Milo Ventigmilia a.k.a. Peter Petrelli

we've come a long way baby!

i already adore this guy back when he was still the bad-ass but very smart Jess Mariano.

lactose intolerant

if you've known me long enough at you probably know about this one personal fact about me: how i feel towards milk. yep. calcium-good-for-the-bones whatever milk. well, one thing i want to share with anybody who cares or matter (whoever y'are), that i just had my first tetra pak milk last night (just like the one above!). eww. after 20 years, more or less. freak. i have my own reason for taking that big plunge. hooboy. what else do i hafta take next?

updates from below

for the nth time, i picked another template (which also sucked like the previous ones) and had to start another chatterbox. gosh. when will anything coordinate?

i'm still on the hunt and wondering wide awake when to get out of this slump. it's too frustrating hearing about successful people (not that i'm bitter or what, just plain envious) and people who expects a lot from you just because you came from a reputable school. hello? does underemployment ring a bell? last week, we met a man from this job fair and he was so surprised when he found out that we (my friends and I) are still unemployed after graduation. because according to him - who comes from UP himself (with emphasis here) -  landing a job never came to be a problem. ano ba kuya?? kailangan namin ng suporta hindi mockery with matching kunot-noo face from you!!! hoo boy.

anyhoo, just wanna share this. haha. guess where.

it was a happy 23rd after all

just when i thought i would have to spend the rest of my birthday on the bed counting all the people who sent their greetings along came...well, a surprise. mahalo to the max: pam, kimi, van, izay, hummy, patrick, dana,tb and len. unsurprisingly, i owe pam another round of everything and anything. thanks for organizing although...haha! mahalo, mahalo! mahal ko din kayo! some pichurs to come soon.

23

-Jimmy Eat World-

I felt for sure last night
At once we said goodbye
No one else will know these lonely dreams
No one else will know that part of me
Im still driving away

And Im sorry every day
I wont always love these selfish things
I wont always live...
Stop it...

It was my turn to decide
I knew this was our time
No one else will have me like you do
No one else will have me, only you

You'll sit alone forever
If you wait for the right time
What are you hoping for?
Im here and now I'm ready
Holding on tight
Dont give away the end
The one thing that stays mine

Amazing still it seems
Ill be 23
I wont always love what I'll never have
I wont always live in my regrets

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Thanks to all the people who sent their greetings. :) 'tis not the best day ever although i've always tried to make this day fun and memorable on its own way. but hey we can't have everthing in this world. thanks for another year that i survived. to all the people who saw my every waking misery, to all of you who stood by next to me as i was having the biggest rollercoaster of my life. i couldn't give up even if i want to. so hang on still, til i get to where i really wanna be.

why does it always rain on me, travis?

it's times like these i wish i had a normal loving family who would take me and cuddle me in their warm arms to assure me that yes, i'd still have them around after a long and stressful day. a normal family who wouldn't mind that I'm still under their roof because it happened that I'm still unemployed. a family that I can talk to of how my day went: was it bloody or gory? mothers and fathers who take care of children simply because they are children and they have the right to be taken care of. Well, those are stuff that i will never, ever find out nor experience for myself, at least not in this lifetime.

i wish all my friends right now were just next door so i can knock the door down, flop myself in the mutilated but comfy sofa and just cry my heart out, runny nose or not they couldn't care less. friends who would hear out all the strange news that I've been getting on my birthday freaking eve. their presence is enough to calm my infested, tired, small brain. given there's still left amidst all this madness.

i wish genies were real and actually grants three wishes to whoever sets them free (given that i was the one who set him free). all right since i'm desperate i could even settle for one.

i wish i wasn't such a dud for opening my tear ducts for like about every other hour. gawd i'm beginning to sound like an emo child. in clinics, in bookstores, in bus. tsktsk.

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an ad i saw along EDSA while on the bus on my way home:
" a must have cake for May"
..jeez, you are so thoughtful Red Ribbon. i too, felt the tears that came out of nowhere.

sa piling ng mga kumakaripas na Cubao-Ilalim bus and other tales

being a commuter can really open your mind to reality. As if naman hindi pa ko namumulat sa lahat lahat ng reyalidad sa buhay ko. pero wala lang. siguro at some point in my life i was bound to be a scientist because i'm a big observer. lahat ay pinagmamasdan ko at ginagawan ng kwento, ng background. binubuo ko sa sarili kong utak. kaso, hanggang dun lang ata ako. hindi siguro ko lumevel-up sa hypothesis phase kaya eto, maging geographer na lang daw ako. wahaha!Plus, i suck in chemistry and physics and MATH. Enough said. So becoming a scientist or astronaut was never an option! Magpatawa ka na lang ng tao Mariela God must have said. E di kung ganun bakit hindi na lang ako pinanganak oozing with confidence and charisma para naging stand-up comedian na lang ako???!! Kasi nga, iba ang itinadhana para sa'yo.

aba. mukhang may sayad na ata ako apart from having a suspicious lung problem. kahit sino naman ata ay sasayad ang katinuan sa mga pangyayaring ganito sa ating "di-kumikitang kabuhayan".

naalala ko na naman ang matinding pagnanasa ko na sana, one day,pag naglakad ako sa may julia drive or pearl drive at sa lahat ng streets and avenues sa ortigas, ay may purpose na talaga ko. hindi bilang isang freshly grad, unemployed and bona fide reject na nagmumuni-muni sa katitingin sa mga nagtataasang building. So sana, huwag namang mangyaring naubos na ang building sa ortigas ay hindi pa rin ako natatanggap. haha!

By the way, di ko alam kung anong katopakan ginawa ko pero nag-aaply ulit ako sa isang company (offshoring.com) bilang isang research writer. Pumasa naman ako malamang sa exam kasi nag-move forward naman ako sa initial interview (or is it just their way?!). at sa monday nga i have to come back for the writer's research exam. wooo. i hope to pass it because this is something i think, is the closest i can get to my old passion: writing. haha! as if. i'm keeping my fingers crossed then.

and later i'm off to watch a gallery opening for the first solo exhibit of my friend's mom. yey! i'm so excited. it's not everyday i get to be invited in functions such as this. magpapaka-demure at feeling may class ako mamya. haha!

oh. and how time flies. 'tis coming ever so close. all i really want for that day is an honest job and 500 peso-reservation fee for Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows (hummy dapat ikaw na lang magbigay sakin neto e, kaso alam ko kuripot ka tsaka Machiavelli nga pala ibibigay mo sakin)! Yay!

So Not OK.

So the first day blues might have skipped me but now i'm having second and third thoughts on "second days" as well. It was already a bad thing to be told that you can't attend your training but it's also another thing to be sent home, again, for the second time. Okay. So i heard i'm having a problem. And huge for that. Of course, if i conditioned myself that it was a good thing, i can happily accept that. and if i wanted to be narrowminded (which luckily i'm not) i could just shrug the whole thing off. But how? after all the difficulties that I had to endure just to get here and all the difficulties of the people i managed to get involved, how would i move forward? Apparently the mountful of bottled feelings have already passed and what is left are just tiny pieces of sanity that i'm strongly holding on to.

So in case i sound, look or feel like a lost or troubled or supergiddy gal, just blame it on the bad case feeling of being laid off. Whut?!

First day Blues Over and Out

and so i started my first day of training yesterday on, ironically, a labor day. oh well, they don't give a darn in holidays whatsoever. so as expected, i was trembling all over when my name was called first to introduce in front of my "classmates". Pambihira. I have to really think fast for that. yaddah,yaddah. pero in fairness, i made friends real fast. haha! even though it's very obvious that we all came from different schools, environment. age were pretty much diverse. it didn't really matter much. and would you believe that there were actually more men than women there and yes, there were actually a few cuties. haha! ang aga pa para pag-usapan ang mga yan.for now, work,work,work muna.

the best part of that day? going home with a bunch of new friends. we really look silly walking all the way from san miguel avenue to Megamall to take the bus. but it was a good kind of silliness.

Hooray for me on my first day!

400 pesos short of 1000. wrong grammar eh? blimey!

naiintindihan ko kung bakit hindi maiwan-iwan ni manong bus driver ang kanyang minamahal na konduktor. hello? kailangan pa bang ipaliwanag yun.

by the way, i just got hired. to You be the glory.

finally.

teka sandali, hindi pa nga magaling paltos ko e. pambihira.

who will give me my chance?

as i pushed toward my 7th *&^%$$%, can't say i didn't think of that too. am still wondering if this isn't where God wants me to be or i'm just simply dumb. what to do? resources are getting low while expectation keeps getting higher. gawd, all i really wanted was to have a decent job, any decent job at all.

hello corporate world. i'm on my knees. i'm begging you to please, please open your door for me. i've been knocking for quite some time now and honestly, it's becoming too tiring now. would you? could you?

Araw ng Pagkilala (KAPP: April 21, 2007,UP Theater)

Hindi man ako nakaakyat ng stage para kunin ang diploma ko, ayos na sakin na makita ang mga kaibigan ko na kunin ang mga diploma nila..maging proud at super saya habang tinatawag ang pangalan nila at kinakamayan ng dean at panauhing pandangal namin. Ang saya talaga pala ng feeling habang nandun sa loob ng theater dahil sa okasyong iyon: ang pagtatapos. Maraming salamat sa lahat ng magulang na bumati, mga kaibigan, kay june na nagbigay ng bulaklak at sa lahat ng taong kumuha ng pichur..nakakasilaw man at nakakangawit, ayuuus lang! By the way marami pang pichurs sa multiply ko so if interested, click lang sa gilid. :)

kulitan lang habang nasa labas pa sila




my sablay moment with eman the cum laude and pam the proud graduate

ang gaganda!

izay, me and june after the ceremony

ang napakakulit at uber cool na Department Chair ng Geography, Sir Meliton Juanico.

Pam, Kimi and Me sa stage. Lahat ng tao ay nagkakagulo na!

I really appreciate everything that they've done to me. JP here was hugging me while congratulating me because he (among others) said that it was also my day. :)

Congratulations guys!

Hanggang sa susunod na mga hakbang sa buhay.

" of all the mc donald's in all the towns in all the world, he walked into mine.."

I missed you Popsiekoi! So happy to see you earlier.



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pasintabi kay Humpfrey Bogart sa kanyang napaka-popular na linya sa pelikulang Casablanca.

and so the story goes..

a lil sense of deja vu awashed me last night while watching (and hearing) Wendy of the Pinoy Big Brother 2 (yes, i do watch and it's one of the few things that actually keep me happy) say something about her education background. I don't really like her as a housemate but that moment, it was like seeing myself in front of the tv while she was thanking all the people behind her graduation. She has a tita who's not actually even related to her but decided to help her finish her studies without anything in return. she was right and i agreed to her 100% when she said that there are really some people in this world who are willing enough to help others just because they want to. I know so because I do have them too. Also her feelings about graduation, on how important it is for her to get up on stage and claim that stupid (but most sought after) piece of parchment. Tama sya. Yun ang resulta ng lahat ng paghihirap mo. Friggin' evidence that took her 8 years to get at hindi kami nagkakalayo ha, so just imagine how freaking happy we were. So medyo natamaan lang talaga ako.



Tanggap ko nang hindi ako makakapagmartsa oo, pero honestly hindi ako masaya na hindi ko nga mararanasan yun. Hellow??!! Pero, tanggap ko na talaga. It's just one of those things that apparently I still can't have. But as I've promised to every batchmates, I'll be waiting outside the theater to give them their most deserving sampaguitas ever. NOT! Hugs will do! :)

Happy Graduation to us all!!!

Napakaineeet!!!

hindi ko ma-take.sa sobrang inet ay hindi ka na makatulog ng super late lalo pa't kailangan mong magbawi kasi kabababa mo lang ng bundok.pambihira.pero wala naman akong magagawa kasi ganito na talaga ang summer sa Pilipinas, ika nga ng kamikazee " sobrang inet, abot singit".

but the good thing about it though, the sunflowers are already out and they're a view to behold. Hay.

As for me, I'm still not getting anywhere near I want to be. Ikot lang ng ikot..

I want my watermelon. Waah!

The Graduation Slash Thank You Edition!

Graduaaaaaate na ko!!!!!

Hindi lang iisa ang dahilan kung bakit masayang-masaya ako na nakagraduate na nga ako (although hindi pa official). Una na siguro dun ang Finally. After n years of staying in UP (and-I- wouldn't-bother- explaining-why-it-took-me-that-long-but-if-you-want-to-i-could-tell-you-just -ask- me!) sa wakas naman ay makakasagot na ako, proudly, na "oo, graduate na ko". And I guess everybody dreamt of graduating right? I'm just one of them. Pangalawa, it only means that i am SOOO over math now. After my nth time of enlisting, sleepless nights, insane days you've caused me (and my other friends too!), praying, buying bluebooks, photocopying sample exams, cursing all my teachers and other horrible experiences, I'm so, so darn happy it all paid off even if it took me many times just to overcome you. Lastly, makakahanap na ko ng trabahong mas matino dahil may lisensya na ko for that another whole world out there. OR NOT!!!

Pero kasabay ng pagtatapos na ito nangangahulugan lamang na maraming taong dapat pasalamatan all throughout the years. Syempre hindi ko pa maibabalik sainyo ang lahat ng tulong na ibinigay nyo sakin sa ngayon pero someday, mangyayari din yun. Sa dami ng papasalamatan ko ay hindi ko na alam kung maaalala ko pa kayong lahat, kasi kahit mga taong hindi ko naman naging close talaga pero naging part kahit once ng college life ko ay kino-consider ko nang nakatulong sakin. Hayaan nyo someday ay mababayaran ko din lahat ng kabutihan ninyo!

Sa lahat ng nag-congratulate at super happy para sakin nung gabing nalaman ko na pumasa na ko sa math ko, maraming salamat sa pakikisama sa kasayahan ko. Super elated ako nun to the max: barbs, june, mon, leidz, kimi, pam, nj, em, hummy, anna, jas, mitch, izay, tita edna, tito rene, honey , jenna at mikki. Sa 2 taong kahit na hindi ko naman nasabihan pero apparently ay nakarating sa kanila ang balita: ed and glady. at sa nag-email para i-congratulate ako: jog. Maraming salamat sainyo guys!

Ang college life ko nga pala by the way ay hindi lamang resulta ng iisang tao bagkus ay collective effort ng maraming maraming taong nabulabog kong tumulong sakin over the years (nasabi ko na ata to in my previous entries). Although hindi ko alam kung san magsisimula, siguro sisimulan ko na lang sa:

*lola dearies ko
Lola Teddy at Lola Sarah. Syempre sila ang pinakaunang dahilan kung bakit nakapag-aral ako sa UP kahit ayaw ng iba kong mga kamag-anak . I'm sorry pero it was UP or nothing at all. Akalain mong determined na pala ko noon!

*We Are One
kayo ang unang pamilya ko sa UP. Grabe, kung ikekwento ko man yun, it should be a whole another story to tell. Ate Grace, Honey, Izay, Che-Che, Jog, Popsie at Rocky, ika nga ng Fall Out Boy Thanks for the Memories.

*Block N2 friends ko na sina Weng at Jan!

*UP Sorg orgmates and families ko especially batch dos mil!

* Sa lahat ng classmates ko nung high school na sobrang naging close ko nung nag-college kami, sobrang treasured yun.

*UP Explore orgmates and families! I Love UP Explore!

*Geography Department friends. Ang hirap i-categorize kasi mga naging kaibigan ko sa department ay naging orgmates ko at superfriends pa. pero nevertheless maraming salamat pam, kimi, juraine, ed, ela, sarah, mitch, jayvie, leriz, june, essie, jp, raymond, mona, eman, van, aileen, chantel,lady, dean.

*Aurora fieldmates. 2nd year anniv na natin mga tsong!

*Lahat ng maging teachers, professors, instructors ko then and now, whether pinasa nyo ko or not. Pero special thanks kina sir Mandigma, Ma'am Vallesteros, Sir Leyson, Sir Sonny Ortega, Ma'am Nantes, Ma'am Yany. At sa lahat ng mga tumanggap sakin nung nag-prerog ako sa mga klase nyo, grabe, salamat talaga.

*Kina Sered, Ma'am Abad, Mang Cris at Mang Rolly( sa pagtanggap sakin bilang SA for 2 years).

*Sa Bermillo family. Grabe supeeer talaga! For all the support: financially, emotionally and especially spiritually! Sobrang na-feel ko kung panong magkaron ng pamilya dahil sainyo. mahirap i-define kung gano ako nagpapasalamat sainyo sa lahat ng tulong na ibinigay nyo sakin pero maraming maraming salamat talaga.

*sa lahat ng mga naging groupmates ko. sa sobrang dami na nun ay hindi ko na rin kayo matandaan pero you also deserve to be thanked kasi pumasa ko sa subjet na yun kasi ka-group ko kayo. ahaha!

*sa lahat ng mga drivers ng jeep na pumayag na hindi ako magbayad at patawad naman dun sa lahat ng mga jeep na winantutri ko..:(


Maraming Maraming Salamat sainyong lahat kasi either kayo ay: tumulong sakin na magbayad ng tuition fees ko, nagpapakain sakin kapag wala akong pera (which is always!), nagpautang sakin pag wala na kong pera, nanlibre ng pamasahe, nagpakopya ng assignment, nakikinig sa mga laments ko sa math, thesis mates ko, nagbigay ng libreng bluebooks sakin, nagpahiram ng mga ballpen, mga nag-share-a-load at nagload sakin for free. madami pa pero hindi matatapos to kung iisa-isahin ko pa. So in short, nagpapasalamat ako sainyong lahat kasi naging patient kayo sa akin whether as a friend or classmate or orgmate, because of your unwavering support and belief na matatapos ko din ang lahat ng ito someday. at eto na nga yun!!

pero hindi pa dito nagtatapos ang lahat..panibagong simula lang sa isa pang mas masalimuot na mundo.

pero as of now, kampai lang muna ng kampai!!

KAMPAI!!!

kahit dis-oras na ng gabi, it's been gnawing on me for about 3 weeks now. and i'm just so freaking happy.

details later..

KAMPAI!!!

Official Jacket Summaries

UK Edition

With the release of the book jacket images, Bloomsbury also released the inside flap and back cover texts: Inside Flap:

“Harry has been burdened with a dark, dangerous and seemingly impossible task: that of locating and destroying Voldemort’s remaining Horcruxes. Never has Harry felt so alone, or faced a future so full of shadows. But Harry must somehow find within himself the strength to complete the task he has been given. He must leave the warmth, safety, and companionship of The Burrow and follow without fear or hesitation the inexorable path laid out for him.
In this final, seventh installment of the Harry Potter series, J.K. Rowling unveils in spectacular fashion the answers to the many questions that have been so eagerly awaited. The spellbinding, richly woven narrative, which plunges, twists and turns at a breathtaking pace, confirms the author as a mistress of storytelling, whose books will be read, reread and read again.”

Back Cover:

“Harry is waiting in Privet Drive. The Order of the Phoenix is coming to escort him safely away without Voldemort and his supporters knowing – if they can. But what will Harry do then? How can he fulfil the momentous and seemingly impossible task that Professor Dumbledore has left him with?”

US Edition

American cover.
Scholastic has also released the details of the American cover. For the fourth time (and the first since Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban), the cover is a wraparound. David Saylor, art director at Scholastic, describes the cover as:

“The structures around Harry show evident destruction and in the shadows behind him, we see outlines of other people. On the back cover, spidery hands are outstretched toward Harry. Only when the book is opened does one see a powerful image of He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named, his glowing red eyes peering out from his hood.”

Mary GrandPré, the illustrator of the US edition books, has not used a monochromic color scheme, as she did with Order of the Phoenix (blue hues) and Half-Blood Prince (green hues). Instead she has reverted back to the color schemes of the first four books.

US book cover of hp7

*thank you good 'ol reliable wikipedia!

Happy 2nd bloggie!!!

just because this past few weeks have been kinda chaotic doesn't mean i forgot one of the few things that still keeps me sane...writing. So here's two cheers for our revenge. Yay!


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pasintabi sa My Chemical Romance

still hanging by the moment..literally

hindi ko pa talaga alam ang future ko dahil may mga bagay pa na humihila sakin pabalik ng UP at para bang nang-iinis at ayaw pa akong pakawalan after ng pitong taon kong pag-stay sa unibersidad na ito.hindi na nga ako makatulog ng matino since march 30, hanggang ngayong april na ay pinapahirapan pa rin ako. hanggang kailan na nga ba? pagod na kong matulog ng alas-singko ng madaling araw, araw-araw. Pagod na kong mag-isip ng panibagong isasagot sa mga nagtatanong sakin kung grumadweyt na nga ba ko. Natatakot naman akong magplano ahead kasi parang inuunahan ko ang verdict sakin. Basta, this is so not healthy. But what can I do? Ano pa e di ang forever ko na lang ginagawa. ang maghintay! Was I actually meant to be born and wait in this lifetime?? Buti na lang matiyaga ako. ahaha!

that is why i can't answer all your questions yet with clarity..so, bear with me still. and while you're at it say a little prayer for me. :)

how awfully wonderful!

40 days before i hit the magical jersey number of the great MJ and 2 years and 40 days before I become another Josie "Grossie" Gellar in this world. .

(..insert movie soundtrack here..)

pardon the cheesiness..

went to church a while ago. after about 48 years, I actually went back. I guess I still surprise myself from time to time. and as always, i dunno what's with the UP church, but it almost always gives me that big lump in the throat. I'm such a wacko I actually have to stop myself in crying in front of all these happy people. and while I was in there, i realized why..kinda. It was nostalgic for me because I still clearly remember when me and my housemates used to go there (and even you honey for one quite memorable time). Suddenly, the strong emotion of missing your sorta family in the university engulfed me, hence my being sentimental. Gosh. I really,really miss you Ate Grace, Popsie, Jog, Izay, Che-Che and Honey. Magparamdam naman kayo..If only there's a way...



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actually nagparamdam na beforehand si Jog kagabi lang at si Honey kanina lang.

..i'm poor but i'm kind

nuf said.

hindi ako nagmalaki kailanman kasi wala naman akong maipagmamalaki. So, bless my poor heart but though I am one, i am nice. I have always been and forever will be (sana Lord!). And it disheartens me that some may think that I ignore everything and everyone. NOT. (the borat way.)

Apparently, you don't know me well.

this is where it ends

a while ago, we were judged for the last time. and i seriously,hopelessly and truly wished that it will be the last. Because even if i didn't pass it this time around, I've already made the decision that it would be the last. kahit na bumagsak pa man ako, hindi na ko mag-aaral next sem. wala na. hanggang dito na lang ang kaya ko. Although napakahirap ng finals ng Math 100, i hope sa Math 14 naman kahit papaano ay pumasa na ko. Kahit yun na lang po. Ibinigay ko na kay Kabunian ang desisyon kung ano man ang gusto nyang mangyari sa buhay ko ngayon. Yep. Kabunian, Bathala, Lord, Jesus, Allah, Buddha, etc..Lahat na sila ay tinawag ko na kagabi para lang sa divine guidance and i'm quite glad kasi sa unang exam ay enlightened naman talaga ko kahit papano. Wag na lang itanong ang sumunod na nangyari. Huhu.

Ah basta, this is it. Wala nang balikan pa. Do or die na nga kanina. Kwentong segway lang. Akala ko nga maiiyak ako sa math kanina sa sobrang pressure at frustration pero hindi!!! Sa ibang bagay pa ko naiyak. medyo kwentong kamalasan lang talaga. Itong nakaraang linggo na kasi siguro ang pinaka-bad week ko. Bad on everything. Academically and financially wise. Naranasan mo na bang sumakay sa isang pampublikong transportasyon kung saan ay late mo na narealize na kulang ang pera mo? Ako maraming beses na (at hindi sya healthy AS IN!). At sa sobrang katulalaan ko siguro kanina ay nakalimutan kong umutang ng kahit 6.50 lang sa mga kaklase ko. Oh my gas balbas! Pang-apat na beses ko na 'to. Kung hindi ko sinasabi sa driver ang kalagayan ko ay nag-wa-wan-tu-tri ako. Oo. Inaamin ko, nakapag-wan-tu-tri na ko pero iyon lamang ay dahil sa kinakailangan talaga. As in. Bwiset. Dapat kasi hindi na ko bumili ng bluebook kanina kung puro cryptic solutions lang ilalagay ko. Hmmpp. Pero akalain mo, nung inaakala kong maglalakad na nga ko papunta sa bahay ng tinuturuan ko, lo and behold! may dos sa secret pocket ko! Talagang umurong ang luha ko. Hay. Saved by the dos! Maraming Salamat Bathala. Pasensya na kung napaka-pagano ko (pero ina-acknowledge ko lang talaga ang mga sinaunang diyos ng mga Pilipino). Hay buhay. Pagkatapos ng araw na 'to gustuhin ko mang magsaya ay di ko magawa. Ito na ang pinakamasaya kong maibibigay sa sarili ko..ang makapag-internet.



Mabalik ako ulit sa usapang pagtatapos, nakakatuwa naman kasi kahapon habang naglalakad ako pauwi (as always) galing sa pagtututor ay andami kong nakakasalubong na mga newly grad kiddos. Actually highschool na sila pero wala lang, i guess i feel so ancient nowadays. As usual, nahihipo ang damdamin ko tuwing nakakakita ako ng kumpletong pamilya. O kahit na nanay o tatay lang. Buti pa sila. Narealize ko na isa rin pala yun sa mga dahilan kung bakit hindi ako magmamartsa (KUNG gagradweyt man ako ngayon!). Ang college life ko ay hindi resulta ng iisang tao o pamilya lang. Ito ay collective effort. Kung pwede nga lang lahat silang tumulong sakin ay may representative, gagawin ko. pero sadyang may diskriminasyon talaga sa mundo. Hindi kasi naiisip ng mga graduating committees (at siguro ng karamihan na rin) na hindi lahat ng tao ay may buong pamilya. Paano na lang ang mga tulad namin? Walang tatay, walang nanay, walang kamag-anak at kung anu-ano pa? Naisip man lang ba nila 'to nung mga panahong pinagdesisyunan nila na 3 ticket per graduate lang ang ire-release nila? paano kung malaking pamilya naman kayo at gusto mo sila lahat makasama? pano kung wala at all? Ah. Tama na. Nasabi ko na 'to dati pa. kaya nga ba hate na hate ko ang Values Education nung hayskul e! Ni mag-fill up ng biodata ayoko!

Pansin ko parang sabog ata thoughts ko ngayon. Pero yun lang naman ang gusto kong sabihin sa ngayon. Wait! meron pa pala! Gusto ko ng ice cream at lobo. At radyo or anything na lilikha ng musika sa tenga ko. Para naman magkabuhay ang life na ito.Kahit coloring book papatulan ko na rin. Waah.



.:mahabang buntung-hininga:.