it's not sane...*

hindi pa offiially tapos ang sem kong 'to. kelan ko kaya masasabi with all pride na natapos na ang 1st sem, 06-07 for me? hayy..Lord, ibalato Mo na po ang 183 samin! Waaahhh. St. Jude (ang bagong patron saint namin!), sana wag kayong magsasawa sa kakapakinig sa sirang plakang request namin. :)

since maraming kabiguan at ka-depression-an sa buhay ang mga tao (including me of course!), i'm really thankful na may mga kaibigan ako sa paligid ko na hindi nagsasawang magsabi ng words of encouragement kahit napaka-hopeless na talaga (hello! st. jude na nga e!). basta. although kagabi ay isang napakalungkot na araw sa buhay ng isang kaibigan, alam naman nyang andito lang naman kami sa tabi nya math 100 or how many takes pa man.makonsensya na ang dapat makonsensya pero talaga, sumira ka ng isang pangarap e!siguro hindi mo pa naransan ang umasa sa isang pangarap na gagradweyt dapat ngayong sem pero poof, it was gone in what? 30 seconds of your blabbering. oh well.

at hindi ko man yun dapat gabi, well, i don't know how to make a logic out of everything that's happening..Lord? are you making fun of my feelings (no pun intended)? wala lang. alam Mo namang matagal na kong nakipag-bargain sa'yo di ba? ipagpapalit ko ang lovelife at masayang pamilya kahit ilang dekada pa man ang hintayin ko maayos ko lang ang academic life ko. Kaya sana kung ano mang plan of action meron tayo dyan, kung meron man, uhmmmm...bahala na Kayo. You know better. Di ko lang talaga ma-figure out pa kung dapat ba kong maging masaya sa nangyari or what??! I'm confused. Basta, please, don't give me this feeling. a heart is such a delicate thing..kayang i-take ng utak ko ang mga rejections sa lahat na, wag na lang yung heart.masyado nang maraming band-aids at scars yan, give it a break. Amen.

*Pam..we'll see better days. promise yan.

burnout

we all need a break in this life. everyday is a battle and the earth has been a witness for too long of too much sorrow. don't let me upset gaea anymore..she's had enough, and so do i. at the moment. get a grip marye.

Today's Horoscope

"If there's something you want to do today make obtaining it your top priority."

and so, the stars have spoken. i must do what i ought to have done a day or so ago. Hayy.you can't blame me to simply "let go" or just be easy on everything right now because my previous weeks have been real jaded and i do, do think that i deserve to unwind even if not officially (since i'm still tied to all these responsibilities). So, really, just bear with me for now...

So Many Books...

According to the BookCrossing Top 100 Books of All Time I've read a total of 17 lang sa kanilang 100. hayyy again.

1. To Kill A Mockingbird- Harper Lee
2. Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince- J.K. Rowling
3. The Lord of the Rings Trilogy- JRR Tolkien
4. Memoirs of a Geisha-Arthur Golden
5. The Stand- Stephen King
6. The DaVinci Code- Dan Brown
7. The Five People You Meet in Heaven- Mitch Albom
8. Angels & Demons- Dan Brown
9. The Catcher in the Rye- J.D. Salinger
10. 100 Years of Solitude- Gabriel Garcia Marquez
11. Neverwhere- Neil Gaiman
12. Little Women- Louisa May Alcott
13. The Lion, Witch and the Wardrobe- C.S. Lewis
14. Harry Potter and the Philosopher's Stone- J.K. Rowling
15. Lord of the Flies- William Golding
16. Anne Frank: The Diary of a Young Girl- Anne Frank
17. Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban- J.K. Rowling

sa Time Magazine's Complete List of 100 All-Time Novels naman:
1. Are You There God? It's Me, Margaret- Judy Blume
2. The Bridge of San Luis Rey- Thornton Wilder
3. The Catcher in the Rye- J.D. Salinger
4. The Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe- C.S. Lewis
5. Lord of the Flies- William Golding
6. The Lord of the Rings- JRR Tolkien
7. To Kill A Mockingbird- Harper Lee

Not even a Hundred??? oh crap!!!

I came upon this site from one of our faculty's suggestions. And so i thought of an idea and the result was not even remotely what i intended to begin with. how sad. By the way this is supposed to be the 1000 movies you have to watch before you die. i only watched 58 freaking films!!!

123. The Wizard of Oz (1939)
188. Beauty and the Beast (1946)
272. Animal Farm (1954)
313. The Ten Commandments (1956)
388. To Kill a Mockingbird (1962)
419. My Fair Lady (1964)
437. The Sound of Music (1965)
527. Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory (1971)
600. Manila in the Claws of Brightness (1975) (in Filipino: Maynila: Sa Mga Kuko ng Liwanag)
605. Jaws (1975)
611. Taxi Driver (1976)
618. Close Encounters of the Third Kind (1977)
655. The Muppet Movie (1979)
680. E.T. The Extra-Terestrial (1982)
685. Tootsie (1982)
711. The Terminator (1984)
715. Beverly Hills Cop (1984)
716. Ghostbusters (1984)
721. The Breakfast Club (1985)
727. Back to the Future (1985)
744. Aliens (1986)
763. Good Morning, Vietnam (1987)
783. The Naked Gun (1988)
784. Big (1988)
808. Say Anything (1989)
822. Edward Scissorhands (1990)
835. Terminator 2: Judgment Day (1991)
855. Farewell My Concubine (1993)
859. Philadelphia (1993)
860. Jurassic Park (1993)
865. The Piano (1993)
870. Forrest Gump (1994)
873. The Lion King (1994)
888.Babe (1995)
889. Toy Story (1995)
893. Clueless (1995)
896. Seven (1995)
907. Independence Day (1996)
914. Scream (1996)
917. Happy Together (1997)
929. Titanic (1997)
932. Saving Private Ryan (1998)
942.Ring (1998)
943. There's Something About Mary (1998)
946. The Blair Witch Project (1999)
954. Fight Club (1999)
959.The Sixth Sense (1999)
960. The Matrix (1999)
965. The Gladiator (2000)
970. Meet the Parents (2000)
972. Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon (2000)
982. Spirited Away (2001)
986. Moulin Rouge (2001)
987. Monsson Wedding (2001)
991. The Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring (2001)
992. A.I.: Artifical Inteligence (2001)
996. City of God (2002)
1000. Chicago (2002)

*grabe not even the mainstream films i wasn't even able to see pa pala such as When Harry Met Sally, Pretty Woman, The Godfather series, Schindler's List (I read the book though), American Beauty, Y Tu Mama Tambien, Adaptation, etc... napaka-loser. andami ko pang kailangang mapanood bago makapangalahati. But alas, it stopped in 1992 e andami pang mga magagandang films na lumabas after that.. hmm..

FULLY BOOKED IS LOVE...or not

Since nung madiscover namin to nila Honey at Che-Che sa newly-built-for-richy/feeling-rich-people-of-Quezon-City(and adjacent places) na The Block (SM North Edsa), ay hindi na ko naka-get-over. tama bang parang ganun ang maging reaction. although this is the first "fully booked" chain that i've been, wala na, panalo na talaga. iba pa rin ang feeling na nakukuha ko when i'm around books, much different when you're around with your crush. medyo nakakahilo at masakit sa heart na realization once na na-overcome na ang amazement. ang ganda kasi ng pagkakaayos e san ka pa! alphabetically arranged ang mga fiction and non-fiction books. mas maganda kesa powerbooks ng shang-ri la! Nga lang syempre, it costs a lot..especially for me na Booksale items person na eversince.

Kaya lang, since may nadiskubre na nga ang mga katulad kong bookies na bagong haven, meron namang bagong kalaban ang management ng bookstore na yun ngayon. e di kami! tayo! nung 2nd time na bumalik ako dun (after a grueling 109 exam) medyo nakatatlong oras kami ni kimi dun! Okay pa ang lahat. konti lang din naman kasi ang tao, pumwesto lang kami sa may carpet along almost every children's books, fairytales, etc..Basa basa ng comics series tulad ng Baby Blues (tawa lang kami ng tawa), Garfield, Dr. Seuss, tsaka yung pambatang novel ni Neil Gaiman. after nun e umalis kami pero bumalik din naman para magbasa ulit (hanlameg kasi naman!) at ayun na. sabi ni Kimi tinititigan na daw kami ng mga staff dun at pabalik-balik na kaming iniikutan. haha! kahit nahihiya ako di ko tinitingnan yung mga mama. Yaan mo nang si kimimay na lang ang makipagtinginan din sa kanila dahil wala namang pakialam yun at di mahihiya yun. :)

all in all, nakapag-stay pa kami ng another two hours dun kahit na ansama na nga ng mga tingin nila samin. bonus pa dahil nakakita din kami ng mga fellow UP studes na ikot din ng ikot. bunch of guys who are obnoxiously loud (kung di ko lang kilala yung isa dun talagang maaasar ka sa kanila) pero wag ka, nagkasundo kaming lima na masyado ngang masama na ang tingin ng mga staff saming lahat pero keber.

oh well, medyo matagal na din yun. as of now di pa rin ako nakakabalik ulit. baka kasi mamya may warning notice na sa labas ng store na bawal na kong papasukin in the future! haha. hello?? pangalawang araw pa lang yun. humanda sila sa mga susunod (kung meron man). buti ang NBS katips kahit bulok na mga upuan hindi nila ipinagkakait ang public reading.

sa wakas nabuhay ang blogspot

dahil sa hindi ma-access ang blogger sa dept nung monday dito nyo na lang basahin muna ang aking piece of mind that time. nwey, it's not much. but id have a lot to tell, nga lang.BUSY. uber!

the rain has stopped, the storm has passed..

and now look at what it's done to our already disaster laden country. Filipinos do not need any more tragedies such as Milenyo but maybe Someone's got something else on His mind when He permitted this to happen. All i can hope in vain is it better be good and it better show on people's attitudes on coming days.

I know what happened to Metro Manila, Cavite, Paranaque, Laguna, Albay, Naga, Daraga and everywhere else was terrible..pero wala nang mas terible pa sa dinanas ng aming pinakamamahal na probinsya: Sorsogon. Sana bumaha ang tulong. I can only imagine the total darkness in weeks to come. Nahihirapan silang ibalik ang kuryente dahil na rin sa lala ng sitwasyon. AHHHH..