The Wheel Is Turning

The guy who doesn't like you before decides you're quite interesting and the guy you used to like (who actually came to like you but then that time you didn't like him anymore) who has now found his inner peace is making you mad for some weird reason. Or is it really the deal? It's probably a rare case of "i'll never get over you gettin over me" thing. Shoot. Bullseye. If that is the case, then I am one selfish human. So screw me! I must be stoned to death for behaving such an ass lately. Tsktsk. It's fate knocking and kicking my freakin' shitty pride. Fine. So you won. What does it matter anyway? I'm still grumpy, lonely and alone. And my sulking in a dark corner won't change anything. My frog won't come out behind the curtain even if i declare war with gods of the world. And I hate that guy who frigginly denies to have ever known me and completely ignores me (when he used to tell me he would be everything i want him to be because I was everything he never knew he wanted). YEAH RIGHT. Boy, am I glad I never really believed in those stuff anyway (man it was way, way too freaky back then!). For me, he was just a kid. And i knew I have been very kind to him as far as i know. Never even mentioned how the whole thing freaked me out to friends we both know. I never, ever, made him uncomfortable. If there's gonna be one who'd be very uncomfortable, it has to be me. But I didn't. I took everything just fine. So why now, are the ghosts turning up against me?