Remember...

Stand by*

As I finally bid this sem goodbye, I just want to share that I have never felt so futile and bozo than ever before. I understand the "we gotta accept things as they are" crap and I’m old enough to understand this stuff, but sometimes, sometimes I can’t really help but wonder when will my own stars start to realign itself for me to see a brighter future. What is in store for this scarred soul? And when would I ever learn?

Err.. I’m supposed to say happy vacation but I’m in to too much trouble to even say that, so I’d just post this song for everyone who might be feeling the same. Adios.

Everybody hurts

-REM-

When the day is long and the night,

the night is yours alone,

When you're sure you've had enough of this life,

well hang on

Don't let yourself go,

'cause everybody cries

and everybody hurts sometimes

Sometimes everything is wrong.

Now it's time to sing along

When your day is night alone, (hold on, hold on)

If you feel like letting go, (hold on)

When you think you've had too much of this life,

well hang on

'Cause everybody hurts.

Take comfort in your friends

Everybody hurts.

Don't throw your hand. Oh, no.

Don't throw your hand

If you feel like you're alone,

no, no, no, you are not alone

If you're on your own in this life,

the days and nights are long,

When you think you've had too much of this life to hang on

Well, everybody hurts sometimes,

Everybody cries. And everybody hurts sometimes

And everybody hurts sometimes.

So, hold on, hold on

Hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on

Everybody hurts.

You are not alone.

* as what kimi said i should do.

Maybe

Maybe life wouldn’t be too normal after all. Maybe after this task, another one will come up. Maybe I will never sleep sound again, nor think of things the same way again. Maybe I’ll pass after flunking too many times, or maybe not. Maybe I was destined to be a queen for a day and slave for the rest of the time. Maybe I should have closed my eyes, should have closed my ears, my heart, my brain before and for days to follow just so not to feel anything. Maybe I’m getting tired or maybe I could be just starting. Maybe I never did grow up nor had experienced being a child. Maybe tomorrow pigs could fly and I could finally lie to have my most sought after peace of mind. Maybe not in this lifetime. Maybe in the afterlife. Maybe never at all. Just maybe.

Into each life....

some rain must fall.

Exactly how much rain should be pouring on me, i am now oblivious.

all i know is that it's as STRONG as it can get.

The five songs...

...that never fail to escape my nevertheless shrinking brain. Hay, kahit libong ulit ko pa syang marinig, okey lang. Helps me keep sane. Thank God for some music!!

• The Killers- Mr. Brightside
• Parokya ni Edgar- Order Taker
• Fall Out Boy- Sugar We're Going Down
• Itchyworms- Akin ka na lang
• Lifehouse- Blind

NachoFast after 159

Kimi.Marye.Ed

Blue Babies at Wham!

While other Geog majors were drinking and enjoying in Simmer down,
eto kami at nagpicture-taking muna bago kumain sa Wham!
I like their color, blue and orange!
Me, Juraine and Ed. Si Kimi kumuha ng pix. nyahaha.

INC is the new trend!!

Opo. totoo ito. Kung gagawa nga lang ako ng survey ngayon ng mga taong nakakuha ng Incomplete, e aba, tiba-tiba yata ako! Syempre hindi naman natin gusto ang magkaroon ng INC pero mas okey na iyon kesa sa 4 o 5 di ba?

Andami namin! yung iba graduating pa kamo. Madami kasing nag-iinarteng prof dyan, yung gusto pang makita yung "paboritong" estudyante nila (hala, issue!). Pambihira, pambihira talaga. Out of 21 units ko e mukhang 12 units lang ang maipapasa ko. Waah. At pag minalas-malas pa, magiging 9 units pa yon. waaah uli.

Pero at least, alam kong di ako nag-iisa. So para sa kapwa ko mga INC, guys we're creating a new trend! Hahaha!

Welcome to the delinquent world of mine.

Hansakit sa leekod!

ayan. ganyan ang epekto sa grammar ng nararamdaman ko, naming 11 dito sa 104 (nasa mezzanine pala ko sa kasalukuyan actually). ikaw na ang humarap sa computer screen sa loob ng 10 oras, kamusta naman yon di ba?!

masakit na talaga sa likod, sa mata, sa utak, sa heart, etc. Isinantabi na muna namin (at least namin) ang aming mga naggagandahan at naglulupitang mga thesis. Hay, napakasakit talagang isipin na ang dami pang gagawin sa mga susunod na araw kung saan gusto mo na lang sanang humiga at matulog ng 10 years. If only. Gusto ko nang humimlay at matahimik sa lahat ng academic baggage ngayon.

Ang tagal pa bago makakarating yung pina-deliver namin, gutom na gutom na ko.

The phone here sucks.

Sigh.

Sophia and Chad: OVER!

wahaha. hindi ako fan ni chad michael murray at lalong hindi rin ako fan ni sophia bush. i don't even like brooke in OTH. pero kasi, fan ako ng lucas-and-peyton tandem e. sayang, hindi sila nagkatuluyan. parang sandali lang yung 'love' story nila sa season 2 at bigla na din agad nag-shift sa iba. dahil ba iyon sa pagpapakasal nila ni brooke in real life?just like that, they gave up one another. pero bow naman ako kay peyton kasi pinakawalan nya si lucas para sa bestfriend nya, dahil after all, "i cannot betray her!". hehe. di naman masyadong adik no.

pero ano itong nabasa ko na tapos na ang season 2 sa pinas! waahh. nahuhuli na ako, wala kasing etc samin e. sa star world lang ako nakakapanood e. oh well, at least meron di ba? dyaskeng cable naman meron kasi kami e. nagsimula na ang season 3 sa states at i agree pipol, na after 10 years pa dadating satin ang season 3. haha!

so now that they're finally off, im pretty excited kung anong mangyayari sa mga susunod na episodes. pambihira nahuhuli na ako masyado!!

lucas and peyton pa rin! woohoo.

only shows how ..... i am.

A European Afternoon

Cine Europa 2005 at Shangri-La

Kimi, Ray and I watched "A man not Wanted", an Italian film, with subtitles, of course.

How was it? okay naman e, me boring parts (sobrang boring tinulugan ni kimi!)

pero at the end, nakakatuwa.

Rated R pala sya. Nagtataka pa kami kung bakit...

hmm...nung napanuod namin..kaya pala!

Libre lang to. Sayang at medyo huli na nung nalaman namin.

Isa lang tuloy napanuod ko. dami pa namang maganda.

Next in line, cinemanila! woohoo!

see us in black and white

Dinner during the Seminar with the Korean Guests

ngayon lang lumabas, matagal na 'to e.

takaw ni jake.

Sir Aleks, center.

juraine [pa] cute.

Ed..hmm

Me!

MOVE!

i should be doing much better things than this.
way, way more important things than this.
when the smoke clears, i'm really gonna spend some time on the moon.

but then again, i probably cannot afford going to the moon by that time. everything has been exhausted already.

darn.